pathetic Aimee I am so pathetic. I just watched the season finale of ER, and I cried through most of it because I was scared Dr. Corday would die. I'm pathetic. I was watching that kodak commercial with the lovers in Italy, and I finally got the ending, and I started crying again. My god am I pathetic. 010517 ... nocturnal well, not so much about the kodak thing, that's just plain weird...but the ER thing! That's definitely not pathetic. I wasn't crying, but I was screaming and scaring the crap out of my dog. and I hate when little kids' parents die and they have to tell the kid. I almost cried when Mark was telling the little boy, but I didn't. And what the HELL was he thinking at the end with just standing there with the shooter guy? You know he's gonna get into SOOOO much trouble for that next season. He'll be all guilty about it and someone is bound to find out. that show stresses me out. okay, I'm glad I got all that out. I wasn't going to mention the show on here because this is not a chat room, especially for stuff like tv shows, but I was seriously about to explode on that one. I'm done now. 010517 ... loki when ben stiller didn't pick "tropical gourd" for where loofahs come from, I went ballistic 010517 ... nocturnal what?! 010517 ... recovering addict he says that my abstract associations of ivet are pathetic...if he only knew what i think about him ha 010518 ... spoons brandon and heidi's 3 YEAR anniversary and they havent done anything mroe than hold hands... 010518 ... silentbobfuckyou There's something i want to get off my chest. its your foot. 010719 ... kendera i wanted to be dramatic, but i came across as pathetic. waiting, waiting, waiting, nothing, emptiness, and i managed to dim the lights on someone's day. just wanted to make someone proud of me. but it never works out...... 010720 ... silentbobfuckyou why am i so pathetic dont get it why you wont return my call 010721 ... scarlett is when you swear to yourself that it is the last time that you let him ruin your day. that it is the last time you let his critical remarks cut deep. that it is the last time he will make you feel inferior and childish. then that it never is. 011113 ... spoons my life... 011113 ... chanaka will no one comfort me, tell me everything will work out? 011114 ... blather dear abby everything will work out. really, it will. it may not be for years...but then again maybe it'll only be a matter of days. it's always up to you, though. you gotta find what it is you need to do to make it work out in the end. good luck and god speed my friend. 011114 ... chanaka thanks :) 011115 ... blather dear abby any time, any time. that is my job, after all. let me know how things work out. 011115 ... psychobabe gerrr to much to say 011121 ... silentbob I'm nostalgic for conversations I had yesterday. I've begun reminiscing events before they even occur. I'm reminiscing this right now. I can't go to the bar because I've already looked back on it in my memory...and I didn't have a good time. 020305 ... distorted tendencies I can't let go of anything, there's no closure. Why weren't you there? to_john_mark_from_osaze i hate you i hate you i hate you there's a few million little pathetic cracks in my heart. I just want to finish it off. 020305 ... dis ten for_john_mark_from_osaze 020305 ... silentbob is it worth it even getting out of bed? its the same everywhere i go everyday everyone i meet. i'm living in a world where i'm the only person that thinks and feels the way i do. there isn't one person that i can talk to that will understand i can't relate to the laughter and applause. i do not understand them they speak a different language we often have similar sounding words but rarely do they meet and agree is it worth it making the effort taking this breath? all these relationships are reruns of the first ones. what's the difference if i never speak to anyone again? its dark in this room save the light i use to write its dark in this heart save the parts i choose to light the next time you see me i'll have a different face and my voice will be different but all my words will sound the same this desolate world how i pity them all. why cant they see things the way i do? when will i learn? is it worth talking about? sometimes i wish i didn't feel anything at all 020830 ... DammitJanet sometimes i think i'm pathetic. all i see are happy couples, they just can't seem to leave me alone. they're everywhere. and to keep my spirits up on being single, i fool myself into thinking that it's all an act. they're really miserable. she's demanding, he's a pig. she's a bitch, he's ignorant. she's cheating on him, he's cheating on her. no one's really happy. therefore i'm better off. but i'm not. it's been so long since i've had someone that i'm starting to forget what it's like. and i'm starting to accept the fact that it will always be like this. that i'll always be alone, and i'll always be bitter. i try to think on the bright side. but since there really isn't one, i just try to not think about it at all. but i still think that sometimes, i'm pretty pathetic. 021203 ... mon uow i am. 050223 ... nom circles 060122 ... starwish you are lying to yourself you are lying to yourself you are lying to yourself you are lying to yourself 060506 what's it to you? who go blather from