less kyla all then back again worlds words and men 011126 ... Bespeckled Less than I was before, weaker and more scared. Scared of saying something doing something, laughing at something, smiling at someone That you wouldn't approve of, that you'd only remember to "correct" me on when you're drunk and let yourself get angry, but only in private, only in the dark, only with the door closed. Because I said that wrong thing, laughed at the wrong joke, wore the wrong outfit, had a drink with the wrong friend, And it's your job to make sure I know it, never do it again, because if I do I'm worthless. (And you're always right, aren't you?) 071105 ... hijita is more not mores is breaking free of patterns, norms Is freeing yourself from confinement 071106 what's it to you? who go blather from