january
monee
i
will
spend
as
much
time
outside
with
you
as
i
can
i
will
i
will
buy
new
boots
and
a
new
jacket
and
i
will
build
igloos
and
snowpeoples
041231
...
unhinged
january
makes
me
think
of
my
sister
,
even
though
i
spit
out
the
word
sister
like
poison
.
she
was
born
on
january 22nd.
22
is
my
lucky
number
.
the
numerology
of
my
birthday
equals
22
.
i
haven't
talked
to
my
sister
in
years
.
she
has
a
habit
of
getting
mad
at
my
dad
and
then
abandoning
me
and
my
mom
and
my
brother
because
she
is
mad
at
dad
and
she
gets
'
busy
.'
the
first
time
i
fell
for
it
.
now
...fuck
that
.
too
many
people
have
been
too
busy
to
pick
up
the
phone
or
return
a
call
at
the
sound
of
my
voice
.
i
don't
bend
over
backwards
for
people
like
that
anymore
even
if
they
are
my
sister
.
i
spent
new
years
with
my
other
sister
and
her
kids
.
she
called
our
sister
today
and
my
brother
-in-law
answered
.
after
he
hung
up
the
phone
,
he
said
to
me
in
the
kitchen
'
your
sister
called
.'
i
looked
out
into
the
kitchen
'
who
?'
'
your
sister
allison
.'
'
i
know
michael.
i
was
joking.'
'
well
i
wasn't
sure
,
so
i
thought
i
would
say
.'
the
sad
part
is
,
for
a
second
,
when
he
said
'
your
sister'
i
didn't
know
who
he
was
talking
about
for
real
.
she
hasn't
been
my
sister
for
years
.
050101
...
belly fire
the
chain
of
events
that
lead
to
this
day
produces
more
than
a
morning
funeral
,
a
quiet
afternoon
of
stitching,
a
night
shift
back
to
work
050104
...
silentbob
It
makes
me
think
of
the
january
that
i
would
spend
preoccupied
and
overanalyzing
that
would
eventually
lead
to
my
emotional
demise
and
my
insecurity
that
would
lead
to
some
of
the
best
music
i
have
found
in
my
life
.
And
here
we
are
again
and
i
can
find
myself
in
similar situations
and
i'm
begging
myself
not
to
do
it
.
But
what
kind
of
life
would
that
be
.
050105
...
nom
election
051230
...
nom
i'm_leaving_town_in_january
070111
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