hesitation
arinna
what
if
maybe
oh
maybe
i
could
be
right
but
i
can't
won't
take
a
chance
breathe
without
thinking
trust
myself
let
myself
go
and
probably
wrong
ready
to
fall
on
my
face
and
sink
into
the
mud
until
oh
god
i
wish
i
could
disappear
because
that's
always
the
way
always
the
wrong
choice
and
my
fingers
are
shaking
and
little
bits
of
silver
are
weighing
me
down
.
010512
...
unhinged
the
way
my
whole
body
stopped
moving
at
the
suggestion
made
you
think
twice
and
i'm
always
wondering
what
i
make
run
through
your
head
.
i
mean
you're
always
telling
me
but
i'd
like
to
know
the
motive
.
your
thoughts
come
to
your
mouth
like
flies
to
shit
but
there
are
the
times
i
can
see
you
visibly
holding
back
.
i
know
it
was
the
bitch
thing
to
do
to
get
up
and
walk
away
but
i
couldn't
go
through
with
it
.
010512
...
Frizzie
A
sigh
of
anticipation
runs
from
my
spine
to
the
rest
of
my
body
giving
me
that
shaky
feeling
that
is
so
warm
.
I
think
this
is
the
moment
that
I
will
share
something
that
will
never
go
away
.
I
sigh
again
and
my
hands
are
sweaty
and
shaking
.
I
then
get
that
retarded
feeling
that
I
have
said
something
,
though
I
am
remaining
quiet
.
I
feel
lost
and
scared
,
and
that
feeling
of
anticipation
has
turned
to
fear
of
"
What
if
she
rejects
me
?"
Then
I
become
sad
at
the
sight
of
her
.
And
then
I
turn
away
without
enough
courage
to
face
her
and
show
my
feelings
.
Hesitation.
010514
...
Aimee
He
scratched
his
nose
saying
"
my
nose
is
itchy
.
Do
you
know
what
that
means?"
I
just
looked
at
him
questioningly. "
It
means,
I'm
about
to
kiss
a
fool
."
My
heart
skipped
a
beat
.
I
have
wanted
to
kiss
him
for
so
long
,
but
the
question
was
should
I
let
him
?
I
kissed
him
instead
...
010515
...
spoons
two
people
started
going
out
on
a
school
bus
.
3
YEAR
anniversary
on
saturday
.
Both
of
them
too
nervous
to
make
the
first
move
,
both
waiting
for
that
first
kiss
.
is
that
pathetic
or
what
...
010516
...
nocturnal
yes
.
I
would
definitely
have
to
say
that
that
is
indeed
pathetic
.
010516
...
vega
*jaw
drops
*
yeah
but
once
you
get
past
the
first
step
all
the
humpity humpity begins.
woo
!
030528
...
lotuseater
im
sorry
i
am
silent
when
we
are
on
the
phone
..
i
dont
know
what
to
do
or
say
or
think
.
i
wish
it
was
mine
...
so
i
could
do
something
.
ill
still
do
anything
...
ill
be
here
for
you
always
always
.
whatever
you
need
.
i
would
raise
it
.
i
would
be
its
father
.
i
would
marry
you
.
i
would
do
ANYTHING
for
you
.
030529
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