forgive
silentbob ten times removed
i forget about where it all begins
bastard son of a bastard son of
a wild eyed child of the sun
and right as rain, i'm not the same but
i feel the same, i feel nothing
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i sensed my loss
before i even learned to talk
and i remember my birthdays
empty party afternoons won't come back
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i forget to forget me
i forget to forget you see
nothing is important to me
i knew my loss
before i even learned to speak
and all along, i knew it was wrong
but i played along, with my birthday song
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again

smashing pumpkins
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ondele me for speaking of the things that were not the matter
just to give you a viable excuse to get out and see better
i felt so guilty
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soia song reminds me of the haze in that apartment with all the strangers
I looked in the eyes of that girl, and I wondered if I was becoming her and what I would do if I was
and I thought of this when I heard "and the next day the telephone will ring, and it'll be him on the line..."
could I have ever been one of those people who floated around, whose worries were petty, who could never be on time, who simply never really went anywhere?
I thought they were happier than me
It wasn't true.
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dean-bean Forgiveness is easy, and here is the key: acceptance of The Way Things Are. If you know the score and understand the things that can't be changed, no matter how much you want to, then life's tangle uncoils into a nice little line. Then everything is easy. Especially forgiveness, 'cause you realize that it won't be any other way. 010329
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unhinged that song was just what i needed

thank you bob
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chiidi forget 010425
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rollins You forgave me in a dream the other night. Th emore you told me it was all right, the worse i felt. I know that you were only doing it because you knew i couldn't possibly hurt you more than i already had. I could see what forgiving me was doing to you. I know that you think i'm too stupid to figure it all out. When you forgave me you knew that it was finally over. The pain would leave me, i would forget you, and you would never see me again except in a dream. It is sad that the things we saw in each other are no longer there. it is a shame that we tore each other apart looking for things that we needed desperately but couldn't describe. it is tragic that we only wnated to give to each other but only stole from ourselves and blamed each other for the emptiness in our lives. 010907
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arinna don't know if i'm forgiven, don't know if there's anything to forgive. i've never liked endings. 010908
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birdmad ...me if i overstep my boundaries

it has been a long dark night and my eyes have not yet adjusted to this light

so there maybe times when i stumble
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Sonya Sometimes you can do this too much, but your personal limit is hard to grasp. We forgive the ones who don't always deserve our time, and we are reluctant to forgive our friends after a conflict. If only this were as easy as checking the mail or even pushing a button.... 011219
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jg I find it somewhat odd that when I clicked 'go' from sins, I came here. The computer must be telling me something. 020614
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lulie Like everything else in life, oddly, it is just a coincidence.
Don't look for deep meaning in shallow places.
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sharkieandgeorge i haven't been forgiven yet and don't think i ever will. i don't think i should even ask, not only because i'll almost never see that person again, but because i don't think i "can" ask. (i mean, i can talk and form sentences, but it somehow seems like i'm not 'entitled' to ask for forgiveness)
another thing is: do i really need forgiveness for something so stupid and pointless like that?
here's the deal: i didn't tell a "friend" of mine something that they wanted to know.. to me, it didn't seem important, but i guess it was to that "friend".
it cost me.
oh well.
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alice neither he nor i can figure out the reason why i forgive him completly for what he did to me. i mean not completly i guess, i would never get close to him again or do anything for him, but most people in my situation would fuckin hate him and i dont really give a fuck. i cried for a few weeks and then i ended it and i just felt better i guess. 020728
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tessa I can't forget, so it's not just a matter of forgiving once and then it's done.

The decision to forgive means forgiving again and again, every day.

To forgive is one of the hardest and most divine things to do. I hope I can.
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newme amen tessa 040719
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mon uow amen again. 050403
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