fantasy birdmad has bred disillusionment stick to what i know work will save me, work will get me through this. and the endless sea of words roiling like mad torrents in the recesses of my head upon this crimson expanse 010126 ... silentbob the idea or conception that perhaps i'm capable of being loved 010126 ... misstree in someone's bastardized words, much more palatable than the dry, crusty waybread of conventional wisdom. puts the meat on your bones. 010127 ... mikey i love fantasy. in many forms whether its sexual fantasy or midieval fantasy books games or whatnot. i have a vivid imagination i enjoy fantasizing about people. i think its healthy. 010306 ... Aimee It is healthy. Everyone does it regardless of whether or not they're willing to admit it. I'm proud to admit I fantasize. 010311 ... michelle* I would be blindfolded, and gently undressed by soft hands. Kisses would follow every inch of my body that the hands touched. My breath would be took away repeatedly. My desires would be reached over and over. And when the blindfold is removed....... it was a women 010419 ... splinken we were dancing to a new order album in this daydream i had. 010723 ... Miffey I'm entertaining a fantasy that the girl I've been dating will fall in love with me and I, with her. As much as I'd like to, I can't ignore that I very much did fall in love with another one already, and even though I wake up with dreams of the new one, I wish that I could make it a reality with the old one. So much so, that I tried. A weak attempt, I suppose : an email proposing some tryst planned out by my subconscious when I was dreaming of a new lover. Maybe weak purposefully, because it's time to move on. It's time to show someone else how well I can love. I just can't forget those two years that were like none other I had ever experienced. A Love so pure that it deserves capitalization. So I guess I'm entertaining two fantasies. Conflicting though, they might be. I guess the future holds whichever I decide to get enough gonads to chase after. One won't come while I weakly and very non-effectively try for the other. Fastasies should be fresh, anyway, right? Something you haven't yet experienced. Who knows? It'll be a good time anyway. 020308 ... Miffey I have this fantsy sometimes that I am a Simpsons character and that Smithers and I are at the Malibu Stacy Convention in Springfield. 020327 ... jinx I love you, and someday, some very special and beautiful girl will love you even more than I do. You are loved; it doesn't have to be a fantasy. 020528 ... bethany that i grow a man dick for like a night just so i can have that huge sex THANG and work it just wanna know what it feels like on the other side 021023 ... silentbob I want to feign sleep with you til our bodies are bone cages and our breathing has ceased. When our faces align kissing ensues and you can't quite place quality on a fantasy but i reckon if we were in each others dreams forever without waking then i could finally get some sleep. if pleasure were a priority wouldn't heartbeats come first? If time were nonexistant i'd ask you to stay over with the sheets off and your hair down. I glue my eyes to yours and react to your simple gestures. Like the one you brought for me to keep it going. Holding on. with our noses touching and our breathing heavy and our faces sweaty, my ears avoid deftly what you're trying to convey. And this song didn't used to remind me of you when i first heard it before i met you but its starting to feel that way as weeks go walking. our breathing will be rhythmic when our bodies will be close. this work goes undated just as i do to forever indicate the forever of the endeavor. i feel like it will happen eventually if i just wait long enough and keep trying. long enough to convince you i belong. 040411 what's it to you? who go blather from