diving
jane
i
used
to
dive
.
before
that
,
i
was
afraid
of
heights
,
and
i
was
that
kid
who
would
get
up
to
the
high
dive
and
then
flip
out
and
climb
back
down
the
ladder
.
i
miss
the
ability
to
chicken
out
when
you're
a
kid
.
the
other
kids
kind
of
respect
it
,
at
least
respect
the
fact
that
you
got
up
there
in
the
first
place
.
by
the
end
of
the
diving lessons,
i
could
do
a
back
dive
off
the
high
dive
.
as
a
matter
of
fact
,
the
feeling
of
falling
people
pay
for
was
now
in
the
palm
of
my
hand
, landing
softly
in
chlorinated
water
and
blowing
bubbles
out
of
my
nose
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...
mon uow
my
first
dive
was
off
the
high
diving board
i
had
just
learned
how
to
swim
i
didn't
know
how
to
dive
i
barely
knew
how
to
swim
the
previous
summer
my
first
summer
in
that_pool
i
stayed
in
the
shallow
end
near
the
stairs
cause
i
didn't
know
how
to
swim
but
i
learned
from
watching
others
and
getting
others
to
help
to
teach
me
so
the
second
summer
i
was
all
gung ho
to
get
into
the
deep
end
and
to
try
diving
i
had
tried
jumping
off
the
side
of
the
pool
holding
my
nose
cause
i
didn't
know
about
bubbles
yet
then
but
i
was
doing
alright
i
guess
i
really
wanted
to
try
the
boards
so
when
i
was
urged
to
try
i
went
straight
for
the
high
and
when
i
got
up
there
everybody
was
looking
up
at
me
going
like
yay
jump
no
dive
dive
dive
so
i
did
i
dove
only
i
didn't
know
how
i
barely
knew
how
to
jump
but
i
figured
diving
couldn't
be
too
difficult
so
i
just
sorta
let
myself
fall
forward
with
one
hand
holding
my
nose
well
needless
to
say
really
it
was
a
terrible
dive
i
bellyflopped
so
bad
and
my
hand
slapped
my
face
when
i
hit
the
water
and
i
got
out
of
the
pool
as
fast
as
i
could
and
i
walked
as
fast
as
i
could
to
the
ladies changeroom
because
i
didn't
want
anyone
to
laugh
at
me
crying
when
i
looked
in
the
mirror
i
was
red
as
hell
on
one
side
but
i
calmed
down
somewhat
waiting
for
the
redness
and
pain
to
subside
and
after
a
while
i
went
back
out
to
the
pool
went
straight
back
to
the
high
got
up
there
everone
was
laughing
like
there
she
goes
again
but
i
tried
jumping
this
time
not
diving
and
while
my
jump
wasn't
that
great
it
was
way
better
than
my
bellyflopped
dive
and
i
got
really
good
at
diving
after
that
but
i
was
always
a
bit
scared
of
bellyflopping
just
cause
it
hurt
so
bad
that
time
i
didn't
know
how
to
dive
050228
...
mon uow
*
really
good
as
in
way
better
than
when
i
started
,
but
no
where
near
spectacular
really
in
any
major
sense
)
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...
PeeT
so
awesome
you
came
out
of
the
change
room
and
went
back
up
to
the
high
.
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