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nr sometimes when you start you can't stop. i spoke to her today and realized how much it would tug at my heart if had to make the one i knew i'd have to. i'm not the same as you. i don't have the same things. 220415
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epitome of incomprehensibility At first looking up university programs made me more hopeless.

Vacillating between several options

(namely:
1) apply to linguistics masters
2) apply to Creative Writing masters, on Janet the creative writing teacher's advice
3) take a year off and look for work
4) take a 1-year TESL certificate so I can get better work, maybe)

left me miserable and crying (what_made_you_cry_today), which caused my brother enough secondhand_stress that he left the room.

I was thinking of applying to Concordia's Creative Writing MA, but it's too late; the deadline is tomorrow. Then I was doubly worried - can I even get an application for linguistics ready in two weeks? The 3-5 universities in Canada I'm applying to have deadlines at the end of the month. The University of Vienna has its deadline for fall admissions at the end of July (!) but I'm not sure I can afford it if David doesn't get an academic job there. He's more likely to get one in North America, maybe - he did have an interview for a maritime university that DOES have a linguistics program, but this was just 20 minutes and online, so he can't really tell how it went.

...aanyway, I was worrying, "How can I do things so quickly if I don't even have a project idea?" but then I thought of it after I put the computer away before supper: go with working towards developing a more precise model of language relatedness. The traditional one doesn't take into account languages that may have more than one ancestor, that result from the blending of different families or branches. But a good scientific project on this would probably require knowledge of computational modeling, and that would have to be a group project unless I suddenly learn programming. Anyway, it seems like an okay general idea and I already wrote an essay about it, so we'll see what happens.

Trees. It's all about the trees. The_sisterhood of tree structures.
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