contemplate
unhinged did you ever see a crazy man's scars?
the result of someone who couldn't erect a great wall in model of yours?
if i picked it up this moment there would be so many new ones named after you
and the kicker is
would you care THEN?
would you care then you stupid fuck?
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such confirmations make me ill
i don't want to live in this skin
people like you drive me out
'i love you so much it makes me sick'
'you're not at all what i thought you'd be'
kind of apt how your own lines describe you
think about that the next time you sit and watch the indians game
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epitome of incomprehensibility What does it mean to contemplate things?

I've contemplated branching off, radically (to the roots of what, I don't know) to become a computer programmer.

I've contemplated doing many things I'm not good at. I've contemplated suicide and not come close to trying it. I don't seem to be programmed to self-destruct like that; I don't know why that should be, but I'm thankful for it. I decided it'd be a net loss rather than benefit, given that many people I know would be upset, not necessarily about losing me, but that such a thing would happen. Also, I want to do more things, not just contemplate them, in this life. In one of those 2012 days, still in Ontario, I was walking to or from school over the highway bridge and I had the irrational urge to hurl my laptop bag over the edge (to be fair, the thing's heavy) and my next thought squawked, "But no, that's suicidal!"

My laptop now is the favourite machine I own. Should it be? That places my bicycle second, and my keyboard third.
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