cocaine jane white horses galloping across my gums & down my throat. 071219 ... unhinged proudly one of the only things i've ever resisted 071219 ... unhinged i got a lucky secondhand look at the way drugs destroy people and this was the dirtiest ugliest horriblest 071219 ... j i still think methamphetamines are much worse - much worse - having a first-person account of both. 071220 ... jane "look away," he said. 090415 ... unhinged meth destroys the body and the brain coke destroys the personality i find both equally as bad. lost people i loved to both. still have never touched either. on the bus on the way home today there was an advertisement for cocaine anonymous: cocaine anonymous we're here and we're free 090415 ... raze every once in a while, i miss you a little. i miss the way you made it feel like every cobweb that ever existed inside my head was peeled away, and everything was suddenly clear, and simple, and right. the bitter taste of you numbing the back of my throat. cutting a straw into small pieces. chopping up lines with the driver's license i never planned on using for anything else. the moment of insufflation. the initial rush being replaced with a kind of warm glow. and then doing it all again. then i remember what you did to her, and i don't miss you so much. maybe it's best that we don't dance again. 130118 what's it to you? who go blather from