changing nom) dreams 050923 ... peyton-one_not_subtle oh, she says "You're changing.." but we're always changing 051212 ... lotuseater it has been some time since i visited this place. i suppose i have changed. probably quite a bit. but i can't tell. 051213 ... cocoon Blather is never-changing. Or at least that's how it seems. 060912 ... zedel yesterday was a good day. i forgave myself. slowly, slowly things are changing. 080314 ... zedel i almost don't care any more almost 090922 ... zedel Something important, I think. Another change. Yes, I should be asleep. I've wasted the night google stalking my boyfriends ex. But I think something very good has come of it. I am pre-disposed to dislike her, but I didn't. I could see what she's trying to do, the person she wants to be. I could see myself in her words. And I started to respect her. But then I found what I didn't know I was looking for - a few hate filled, angry, nasty words about 'her ex'. And somehow through the space between the person she remembers and hates and the person I know and love, I saw myself. I saw the pointlessness of it. I saw how silly it is to hate and be angry, after so long. I saw how random it all is, hate - love - happiness - loneliness - at the flip of a coin. And then I felt a wave of compassion for you. And a wave of forgiveness. Forgiveness. 100112 ... zedel grateful thankful happy and with anticipation 150106 what's it to you? who go blather from