chance luck is green All the King's horses and all the King's men Couldn't put Humpty Dumpty in his place again. 010727 ... argo Overslept but perhaps I (and humpty) weren't deserving of such lofty placing in the first place 020205 ... spoons Go directly to jail. Do not pass Go Do not collect $200. 040706 ... uow give me another chance 040803 ... two I had it all planned out a speech prepared the night before as I lay wide awake staring at the blue light cascading across the ceiling and here it is, the time has arrived my five minutes to shine my moment in the spotlight my hands rest on my knees and I lean towards the microphone and here I sit, motionless my heartbeat all I can focus on all is silence, save for the napkins crumpling chairlegs scuffing, idle coughing of someone in the back row and my breath heavy on the microphone my mental notes are lost my train of thought derailed my thought-trail of breadcrumbs gobbled up suddenly every imaginable way of wording what I mean to say seems wrong suddenly it seems that nothing i'm feeling will be conveyed with the conviction i intend suddenly everything that felt so well thought-out and perfectly planned seems to fall short I open my mouth only to wet my lips I open my mouth only to cough to the side I open my mouth only to close it into a plaintive frown my eyes search the crowd my feet point towards each other as I look at the floor my hands wringing nervously behind my back what seemed so simple beforehand now feels so impossible and I know that tomorrow, I'll look back and think it elementary always beforehand I think myself a knight, armor blinding and i march out into the the field to face the dragon but as soon as i see the smoke curling from around the hill, I forget what I'm supposed to do I look behind me, and I wonder where I've come from I look in front of me, and wonder where I'm going and then I look at myself, and I wonder who I am another day another chance another failure 040804 ... no reason i'm pretty sure any types of encounters with some people depend entirely on chance; whether you're able to catch them before they change their opinions change their behaviour change their beliefs, change themselves... anything to make you think preconceived notions may have been wrong. sometimes i wonder if i should come to terms with the fact that i may have missed or messed up my window. but i guess you never know if and when your windows might intersect again. and i'm sure these people are aware of, and enjoy, the uncertainty. 140908 ... that is "change their opinions, change their behaviour..." sometimes a missed comma is worse than a typo. 140908 what's it to you? who go blather from