be_normal slothisily I'm sad I don't know why I'm sad again I don't like being sad why am I sad? I don't like this feeling I don't like it I don't like it it won't go away the dark is creeping up and I try to push it away I try I try but it's surrounding me like the night I don't like this feeling I thought it was gone what am I going to do? I don't know what's wrong with me I don't know sometimes I just want to be normal. I am not normal, I have never been normal. I can't not think I can't do it I have to think just like I have to breathe but thinking makes me not want to breathe I need to run I need to run and run and get away I don't even know what I'm running from damn it I don't even like running. I'm sad and I can't be like this again I don't know how much more I can take I don't like being sad but I don't even know what would make me happy oh I think I need help I just want to be normal. 041111 ... skyburst i want to dot this just to say i read this and i hope you are feeling better 041112 ... . .) 041112 ... slothisily i am not sad today i am an apple. (thanks for the dot you burst of sky 041112 ... eat id I keep telling myself to do this. Over and over. It's as though I can hear myself talking too much, saying too much, revealing too much before I even open my mouth. Be fucking normal. In other words, be QUIET. 060301 ... unhinged when i hear that same voice in my head in a crowd of people i also often find myself quiet afraid if i might voice my unnormal thoughts i might be annoying or scary to those around me be normal blend in shut up 060301 ... raze they used to say this all the time. "be yourself." followed by: "just be normal." never understanding or caring about the inherent contradiction. 210823 ... unhinged i am normal...for me 210823 ... kerry there is no normal. (to me) 210823 what's it to you? who go blather from