running_from_the_world endless desire and you told me, "stop trying to dimiss what you don't want to hear." but i will never listen anyways. i am a liar. i am my own worst enemy. i am everything i do not want in a person. and damnit, i am whiny. whiny and running. because that is all i know how to do and every time i try to hide, someone finds me. but i wanted you to find me. i needed to be found. 030615 ... birdmad i try this but it is a sphere and i only end up walking_in_circles every now and then i come close to the escape_velocity every now and then. 030616 ... endless desire sinking into this fear you consume me completely ignoring each word and tear why am i so afraid? in front of this mirror all those things i never wished to see are suddenly too clear i want you close. your deadly scream i cannot hear stepping closer, moving inward it seems the time's grown near these are my last days i dont dare peer into this future dont dare smear the past. 031231 ... mon running_into_myself a door i slam shut on others 031231 ... misstree like a dog trying to slink out of reach only to have its nose shoved but i swear i don't remember shitting here! 050802 ... iNsEcUrE_GoTh_GiRl i run and run and try to hide and all i find at the end, when i am exhausted and drained and so, so unhappy is i am trapped with my captor, the one who always finds me when i have tried to escape all the shit; myself. bitch why can't me just leave i alone! 050803 ... todavia estando parado apenas apenas He estado funcionando por veinte años y todavía esa sombra me frecuenta. El mundo, apenas no saldrá. He perdido la resistencia del innocense, la sabiduría y la autoridad pura de mi unchained ser guiless. No piense que fuciarnare demasiado mas de largo. 050803 what's it to you? who go blather from