rape deb little girl just five years old smiles up trustingly while he takes her in his lap after a while, an odd look crosses her small features and she asks "what are you doing?" "nothing, you'll see." she nods and thinks of other things, or tries to, anyway next day she asks to wear her swimsuit in the tub for fear her brothers might look in her mother smiles and laughs ten years later, now she knows seethes from within glaring everytime his very name passes through her mind until one day he sees her once again and says, i'm so sorry she believes but he lied and now she's trying to hide again and they wonder why it is that she can't trust she cries uncontrollably as she looks to me for help what can i say? tell your mom? she tried, and her mother won't believe- for it's her father hurting her shhhh.... shhhh... honey, it's not your fault... oh, god, how i wish i could take her from here~ 991219 ... birdmad You say you have no fear that i could do such a thing to you and you are right to say so for i would rather die than do any such thing but if you feel the need to mention it, then you are afraid I could Why? your choice of words betrays your unwarranted fear i cannot take what is not given freely 000503 ... deb and for that, dear bird, we thank you i only wish others saw what you do so plainly ... 000503 ... SomeoneElse Homicide of the spirit. And thats a worse thing than a murder of the flesh. 000503 ... MollyGoLightly I don't know his name, but I know what he did to 2 girls near the bushes by the performing arts building on campus. And I can't ever walk by myself at night again. For this, I could kill him. 000504 ... lisa_is_bionic Rape. No. Way. Me. 000526 ... Silent Bob Unspoken Request by Boy Sets Fire Failed coercion leads to intrusion and the blood forever runs in her head into her hands between her legs where his mind lies power drives him into murder innocence on the rack of his devices vices and designs she will never scrub the stains from her arms from her neck from her legs the dirt will remain as a reminder of his hateful face reach in rip apart the inner fibers of her soul boy, you'll never know how it feels to fear the shame feel free to walk down any dark street without fear without shame no one is gonna touch you and you don't need protection SHE SHOULDN'T NEED PROTECTION!!!! and you can sit there with that stupid smile on your face and try to voncince me that you care defined by your power defined by her body the innocence she feels everybody else contains it's lost it's gone but i gues it doesn't matter anyway reach in rip apart the inner fibers of her soul and you can sit there with that stupid smile and your face and try to convince me that you care defined by your power defined by her body defined redefined FUCKED TORTURED AND DISCARDED and if he ever cares maybe he will feel ashamed for everything he's stolen, for all the trust she gave possessed and broken she cries but it's not our problem pull down your goddamn blins he will never think he's wrong she will think you're wrong she will never feel quite right 000615 ... For sure! Don't you EVER even consider doing this. This is not a joke. 000713 ... giftengel no schieße, sherlock 000713 ... paragraphstar Every time the word passed before my eyes, i thought of you. your tender, child's heart beating slightly off time, while mine skips a beat in anger. and you know that if i could... 001117 ... misstree not human... she's not human... she belongs to me she ASKED FOR IT she's not real i'm real i want i need i WILL not human... not tears... she's just being melodramatic... she wants it... i want it so she wants it because she is mine... she's not real she's here for me to plunge into and own... i love her i hate her i own her i rape her... sssh... it's okay... really... it's all okay... trust me... trust... never again... trust me... 001118 ... deb shhhh... shhhh... it's alright... alright? alright? how, exactly, can it be ALRIGHT? try "alwrong" but somehow, sometime between then and now my heart that once beat wildly, untamed... this heart of mine that begged to just slow to silence... my heart was quieted, the only way to keep going is the strange rythmic pulse that still beats on- teach my heart to find joy... she loves, but she's still afraid 001123 ... b0 y0u l00k at me with the eyes 0f a child yet have n0 childness t0 l00k fr0m . . . y0u seek t0 c0rrupt and destr0y me and rip my inn0cence away . . . y0u suck 0ut my life's bl00d and and spit me back a br0ken dream . . . y0u can't even l00k fr0m within anym0re f0r y0u've made y0ur life a lie y0u seek f0r me this fate as well . . . . . . y0u lust f0r me t0 die y0u push me y0u pull me y0u tear me apart . . . y0u break my heart y0u break my will 'til i n0 l0nger can fulfill this sick sp0rt y0u've wrested n0w br0ken i'm bested y0u vi0lated abused me then threw me away g0ddamn y0u g0ddamn me f0r i have l0st . . . . . .and y0u have w0n yet i still deny it still i run... ...fr0m y0u? 001218 ... j_blue sometimes i think it happened to me. it was a new year's party a few years ago. i was depressed and drank way too much way too fast. i walked out onto the patio and started talking to somebody. next thing i know i am waking up in the living room, with a blanket on top of me, flecks of vomit adorning my clothes, my pants were down. later i found out that i had been kissing somebody's exboyfriend, and that i probably had sex. the only good news is that my but didnt hurt... i dont know if he knew how drunk i was, or what he was thinking. i have never tried to communicate with this guy, though i have the option. i felt violated, i dont know. there is this huge acceptance of that phenomenon, for men at least. my friends acted like i should be proud, that i had had a good time. it sucked. it still does... so its totally grey, like the right or wrongness of it. its one of those things that are just unfortunate, and thats all that can be thought about it. 001218 ... MollyCule how ironic - five years to the fucking day, and I see the word rape on the recently blathered about page. 001219 ... j_blue no irony, only cosmic_regularity 001219 ... EECP FUCK! This action deserves immediate punishment. The question being, which punishment is enough to suffice for the crime? Is there one? I do not think there is one. Fucking die rapist bastards. I wish I had the moral flexability to kill you. I would kill you all. 001221 ... twiggie i think that at the very least, rapists should have to go through exactly what they put their victims through emotionally, physically, mentally... Not that this is really all that possibe, but it only seems fair. i don't really know how to describe the punishment i have in mind, but the above is the closest i've come. i have no sympathy for someone who would rape another. 001221 ... j_blue i dont think anyone deserves any unpleasant experience, regardless of what they do. its nice if they are aware of what they have done, but there is no way of mandating it. there_is_no_justice 001221 ... unhinged some people told me i asked for it "you know what nicole...you should have never gotten drunk with a guy you didn't really know." and he almost had me believeing that he didn't do a thing to me...i think he knows that i know what he did. and he seems scared whenever he looks at me. it happens to way too many people. and i sat outside with him stumbling drunk smoking cigarettes listening to him talk about rachel and he said "you know it's a good thing that we didn't have sex." and i agreed with him. and the next day i listened to traffic over and over again with jim's words echoing in my head "how does it feel to be used..." that's really nothing new. and i sat there and listened "she screams from the traffic in her head...there's no saftey in dreams." and i cried. i was balled up in the fetal position on top of my bean bag chair on the floor five feet away from where it happened and i cried. and for weeks afterwards i hyperventilated the tears stuck in my throat every glance i got. you should go to the police. it won't do any good if there's no witnesses. what good does it do to have a big battle of words and drag everyone else into your pain? almost four months ago and my parents still don't know. i hope they never know. 001221 ... revenant no one ever "asks" for it. kick the shit out of the person who suggested that you did. or arrange to have someone kick the shit out of them for you. then tell them they were "asking for it" by running that festering hole they call a mouth regarding a matter they should never have to understand 001221 ... its true its true correction...someone who has done it to someone is asking for it...repeatedly and with oversized objects over a prolonged period of time 001221 ... j_blue yall are a tad extreme, though acceptably so, i guess. i am always afraid of violating somebody, sometimes i convince myself that i might have already, its all so grey. i hope that nobody thinks i have, because i know what the feeling is like, but i know that it could happen. one of the problems with rape is that it is something generally not done to people, but rather experienced by people. i mean, how many people set out to rape somebody? its not a pleasant experience, but i imagine living with the knowledge that you did this to someone cant be anywhere near pleasant either. 001221 ... Birdmad Sam treated me like she was afraid i would sometimes. Always made me wonder. Always made me hate anyone who could do such a thing. 001221 ... j_blue there is a built in fear of men many chicks seem to have. its annoying and irrational. my grandma is afraid of me. even girls who are stronger than me are afraid of me. they are afraid of my maleness, and i hate them for it. 001221 ... fuck don't talk about it, like you know what it's like. 001222 ... danielle im so scared to feel it again.. i dont want to know anybody just... lock me up..... dont want to feel him kicking me in the ribs again... stuffing a doused rag .. tastes like petrol.. into my mouth.... i cant begin to explain how much pain i feel.... my mind is empty.. i feel numb.. violated... no one understands me... i cant feel anything anymore... 010124 ... pathwrat you know how you say a word, just repeat it over and over eventually it means nothing just nonsense syllables devoid of any meaning. maybe the word means something to you, but by repetition, it is cleansed? I had a friend, she would run around all the time, saying it over and over just "rape rape raperape rape raperaperape raperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperaperapeRAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPERAPE!" (i know you didn't read all those. just imagine if you COULDN'T stop. No mater what. You can't stop it.) 010209 ... peyton I'm a man. It's nearly impossible for me to be raped. I'm in love with a woman who was almost raped.. she wrote about it once. My heart caught in my chest. I'd never tasted so much fear.. I'm crying right now.. thinking about her screaming.. the tears are running onto my fingers as I type. I know someday, someone will read what I've written about rape. I don't know where to begin trying to comfort you. I know there is nothing that can be said to take the agony from your bleeding soul. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry you have to live in a place like this, where people do these things to you. I know you will never be the same. I am a man. I could never do such a thing. I know I am on the same gender as he</