questions_that_might_not_be_answered Afro Do you ever just wake up one day and wonder if this is where you are supposed to be? If you had asked me five years ago where I would be today, I would have never come close to guessing here. So many people have entered and left my life. When you are younger, whenever you lose a friend, its this big deal. But as you grow older, you meet so many new people that sometimes there really just isn't time for everyone you've ever met. You choose to hang out with the people that satisfy the needs and wants that you have. The people that no longer interest you, kind of just fade and pass with each day. Then a year later you say, hey, i wonder what happened to that person. And thats all the thought you give it. And thats not cruel, thats just the way it works sometimes. You can't be friends with every person you've ever met your whole life. Would you rather just have a few really good friends or one hundred friends you don't know too much about. Sometimes its even the same way with significant others. You can date someone for a year and be the center of each others world, do everything together, and then when it ends, we pretend it never happened. You go on with your life and they go on with their life. And sure, you learned something most likely. You learned what you don't want. But did you really gain anything? I guess it's really on a case by case basis. Regardless, it's never easy. It always hurts, even for the people that say they are fine. You can hide the pain from others, but not from yourself. You can even replace those feelings and give them to someone else. You can pretend you're so happy, and then go home and sit in your room and stare into nothing and wonder why it just doesn't feel the same. Well, cause it's not the same. Its someone else. And each person you have to start all over with and build up new feelings. And you go through this cycle so many times in your life and wonder if there is some type of shortcut. There isn't. Not unless you don't have feelings altogether. So this brings me to believe that before placing so much emphasis on caring for and loving someone else, maybe its time to be happy without someone else helping you do so. The day you can wake up and be happy without someone else making you feel that way is what you should be seeking. But the one question I have is, how the hell do I do that? 040707 ... Bayer Medication is the key. 040707 ... pete Ask more questions, discover the confusion, accept it the confusion, and live. 040707 ... nonlucid I can do the rest, but the "live" part doesn't work so well 040708 ... foregotten_horison before you can truely be happy with someone else you have too be able to be happy by yourself if you put youre happyness into someone elses hands they will do what they do whith it for people will just be people chances are they will end up breaking it and your happyness will be gone untill you find someone that will share there happyness with you but once your happyness is broken that doesent mean that it is gone forever you just need to find yourself and you will find yur happyness other people are not the key you are ~soon to be sick of those that are all the time near~ 040708 ... TK So wait, let me get this straight, so Kerry drops out (or "concedes") bc he is afraid of a tie? He drops out bc he doesn’t want what happened last election to happen this election? Bush only won by some 5,000 odd votes last time (thanks in part to his brother) ... I think Kerry is being black mailed w/ something, it's the only logical answer I can think of for him to suddenly decide to concede, or am I just all around wrong? 041103 ... thieums Some questions might not be answered. Those questions usually start with "why" Sometimes also with "how" Possibly also with "who" Still I wonder out of the blue What is the capital of Assyria? 180730 what's it to you? who go blather from