potentially_permanent_self_imposed_silence o m last night i tried to help her and now she hates me for it. i would imagine, knowing what she knows about all of my various identites that the sight of my name will only bother her more so i see no choice but to remove myself from blue and red. i will read from time to time, but i doubt that you may seem my name again besides, i wasn't geting any work done lately signing off for Grendel Birdmad Xipe Totec Chiidi WingedSerpent (and a few others) 010805 ... sim Coincidence, or?... I myself could have used some help last night, but I didn't take it from anyone. This afternoon, when I was ready, I called the only person I wanted near. Luck wasn't on my side (the phone rang and rang and rang,) but at least I made the effort. Of course, there's a chance he doesn't even read here anymore. 010805 ... nocturnal NOOOOOO!!!!! please don't go, birdmad. blather won't be the same. oh dear god, what has this place come to?! 010805 ... god if you go, please come back 010805 ... birdmad is dead i'll be watching maybe i'll occasionally volunteer a comment (like this one right now) and maybe if i can achieve some kind of resolution to the situation that has led me to this conclusion i will just remember that your favourite sick and twisted bird will be keeping an eye on all of you maybe i'll adopt a new name when i get back (you'll likely recognize the way i write) so as i once declared during a vulnerable moment in the past... ... 010805 ... radiohead exit music for a film 010805 what's it to you? who go blather from