peyton Rhin aka Alexander Regarding what you blathed on my page, I just want to say, you are so very welcome Peyton! I have thought of you every day, since reading your blathe. I wonder if you are just muddling through your days, or if maybe now, there is a light spring in your step. I always wonder if you will be back. You know, sometimes these pages can come back to haunt you, but for the most part, they are healing to one's soul. I think you will find that, at the times you need it the most, someone will hear you, and reach out to you. I think our Blather 'God' watches over me, even though I continually try to push him away. I love the fact that he doesn't listen, and keeps coming back at opportune moments, to let me know someone cares! He's not the only one, who has bestowed his heart upon me, and I really love all of them for it! Peyton, just always allow your soul a voice, when it wants to speak... We will 'listen', and even if you receive no response, you can rest assured, that what you blathe, will be felt! 010105 ... Sintina But of course! He brought me here and now I am here. And I like it here. And I will stay here. Because work is boring and I have no computer at home, so I write when I should be working. But I'm not a slacker, no not by any means. In fact, the boss considers me the best worker they have. And I am. I manage my time wisely. I do more work than any of the others in half the time and then I use the rest of the time to sit online and blathe and chat and search for things. I miss you Peyton. Only you could find a place like this and then tell me to come. But then again I'm perfectly happy and I don't need this place, except that I need to write and I love to write... and God I miss writing! I don't have time to create the stories I used to... school, work, school, work, sleep, school, work. **sigh** 010105 ... Sintina Shit... did I really blathe that I was "perfectly happy" ? What was I smoking?! I think I was in some sort of denial when I wrote that. Because life will never be perfect. And I'm not always happy. Peyton and I connected on a ground that was new for both of us. Life was sweet when we were together (well sometimes bittersweet for me). Philosopical and intellegent conversation reigned supreme. It's just so sad that our talks often turned to depressing subjects about the past... we both had fathers... fun-loving guys... Anyway, I do miss him. Life just isn't as interesting or (dare I say) emotional without Peyton around. Cause one thing's for sure I was always emotional when he was here. 010106 ... peyton Wow.. You love me.. you really love me.. ::snicker:: 010117 ... Rhin Here's a cyber hug, from me to you... ((((((((((((( Peyton )))))))))))))) * Rhin whispers* check your mail By the way, I play dominoes on yahoo sometimes...small world, huh? 010118 ... peyton_eating_chips I'm sittin here munching on Tortilla Chips. The round ones, of which I've emptied a whole jar of processed chesse spread. I feel nasty inside, like my stomach is going on strike due to the lack of care for its well being. ::munches on another chip:: But yet, these chips are so tasty.. So salty.. mmmm.. It's still my day off. Wished blather were real time so I could chat. I feel chatty. But, it's not. So I shall sit here and munch, until another post comes to play. 010119 ... Thyartshallshant Cheer up on this whole popualarity thing. It's not what this place is about anyway, so don't worry bout it. You seem like a pretty cool guy. 010119 ... peyton Thanks Thy. I've thought back a bit to my little popularity rant. I've wanted to recall it several times. The fact that I was so self-centered at that time to bitch about me not getting enough attention is well.. childish. The depression was caving in at that time. I wanted someone to help. So I lashed out at something that seemed happy. I hope my behavior will be excused. Man I wished I had more chips. 010119 ... Rhin Can I keep you? 010122 ... peyton wow.. it's dark in here.. My place has got this dark musty smell.. like no one has been in an a while.. Oh well.. I like it here.. 010227 ... *Ziima* Japanese Jerk. 010303 ... Rhinna First of all, Peyton please forgive me darling. I realize that you can 'fight your own battles', but I am in the position of beating you to the first punch, so I will be the first to defend your honor... Ziima, besides the fact that Peyton is not Japanese, your remark reeked of racism. What would him being Japanese, if he were in fact, have anything to do with your slanderous attack against his personality? Pray tell... So to start, let's agree that whatever ill-will you harbor against him, is against his character, and not his nationality. What is that saying... When you assume, you make an ass out of you! Having said that, I will continue on by saying that your amusing label - jerk - was just that...amusing. How did you happen to arrive at this conclusion? Are you referring to his blathering on the topic: 'slut'? I'm asking, because I would never assume. I would also like to say that you have had your moment in the spotlight, concerning that topic at hand. Are you one of those type of people that exhaust everyone around them, by not finding closure in a subject, and continually subject them to it, even when the topic has passed on, of it's own accord? ::sigh:: (If the question of this being any of my business, comes to light, then I will just say, that Peyton is my business!) Now, moving on to defend your labeling of him as a 'jerk'. Oh, where do I begin... I have met alot of jerks in my lifetime, and I must say that Peyton is not one of them. Only a jerk, would say something like that, about someone who is only guilty of posessing such a highly moral/virtuous character. Peyton is the most amazing man that I have ever met. His heart is gold, inside and out! If it's a character debate your craving, then your out of your league, as many people would be for that matter. Peyton is the definition of purity. Of course you might say that my opinion of Peyton is biased, because I am so in love with him. Well, you would be right about that, because I couldn't love anyone more, and that just makes everything that I have said, worth even more! To close...in the future, please keep your opinions to the topic at hand, and on the appropriate page for that matter. Thank You. (Peyton, I love you baby!) 010304 ... peyton lol.. I must offer a thank you to my newfound friend Zimma for prompting Rhinna to say such exquistite things about me.. Thank you thank you thank you! lol.. you funny people out there.. always helping us love each other even more.. I can't thank you enough.. (Love you too sweetie!) 010304 ... florescent light Being in love is a beautiful experience. And I only have good wishes for you. But you guys need to relax. You are being mean by 'ganging up' on people. Because you're being too uptight. You are taking this too seriously. Anytime anyone says anything that might('might' being the key word here) not have honorable intent you get upset. And when you are done reading this...you will logically disect, and overanalyze every flaw in every thought in every sentence I have written - Missing the point entirely. You need to lighten up a bit and not take every comment that is directed toward your honey so seriously. Some people aren't saying things to be malicious dear, but they have a different sense of humor than appearantly you are used to. Learn to laugh at yourself. And please try not to let things get to you as much. Please take a look at the situation from an obective point of view, maybe then you will be able to see what I'm explaining. 010304 ... florescent light Just because you're in love with each other doesn't mean that everyone else has to be too. 010304 ... florescent light They are as much entitled to express their feelings of dislike, as you are free to express your love. 010304 ... *Ziima* ...Jesus man. My opinion....is my opinion. As is yours. You dont like others opposing your views, so why oppose mine? Tit for tat. As for your little luv-fest under your own personal shrine within "Blather"...I agree with florecent. And I do not exhaust others because I cant find closure...that would be you. End of thread. 010304 ... peyton you people just don't get it.. You called me a name.. without any personal knowledge of myself at all.. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you people's eyes.. I really don't know. 010304 ... florescent light Why do you let it bother you? What other people think? Especially if you know that the people who are saying them have no creditability? 010305 ... peyton None of you know me at all. Only Rhinna.. only she knows me at all. Yes.. I know they don't know me.. but I care.. I want to be loved.. I want to be liked.. and it hurts when I'm not. I like people.. and it hurts when they hate me. Either way, Zimma was abrasive to me, for no apparent reason. Rhinna defended me, as I would have her. I don't like Zimma. She (or he) jumps to conclusions, and is generally as bad as I am about judging people they know little about. I would choose, to not ever read anything that person ever writes again. I read the 'tori amos' hate blathe against her. I know that Aimee likes Zimma a lot, apparently. I apologized for my words to Aimee on blather, and in a personal email. I thought things were concluded involving my rantings. So, if you do forgive me Aimee, talk your friend into just leaving me alone. I have no interest in trying to change Zimma's opinions of me. I just want her to keep them off Rhin and I's pages to each other. We use blather as sort of a love letter to each other, and it's something beautiful that I'd rather not have to leave. I will be honest here and say that the blather population has enough power and sway over me to force me to leave. If the general populace hates me, and tries to flame me, I will go. I have no intentions of trying to fight a group so inspired to crusade against me. I would choose, however, that I would not have that decision made for me. I would miss hearing you people, and what you choose to say to each other. I would miss people like Unhinged and you_know_me, and what the darker parts of life have done to people. Fighting like this, and using blather as a message board is disgraceful, at best. You are making something with so much potential, like blather, become something so small. I wrote one time about that.. is_nothing_sacred . Blather, brought me Rhinna. I would not abandon blather until I have properly repaid it. But if I think that the blather I found months ago no longer exists, I will go. And I'm sure most of you would like to see that happen. But please don't make me go. But I will not change. I am a self-righteous son of a bitch. And if reading what I write makes the impurities in yourself shine, maybe you should listen to some of what my soul is trying to relate.. or perhaps not. But it's wrong to try and silence me, and make me shut up. And anything like 'Japanese Jerk'.. well that's just immature at best. If I'd went to Zimma's page (if one exists) and written 'American Bitch,' I'd been labeled as sexist and evil and all sorts of unpleasant adjectives. Please just show a small bit of restraint and maturity, and keep your feelings away from my plain sight, if you please. And it's a request.. not an order. I cannot force anything here. But I do hope you think enough of just individual people to grant just simple courtesy.. The choice.. however.. has always been yours. 010306 ... mikey some people say comments just simply for a reaction. and it works. 010306 ... Aimee Peyton, Ziima is just responding that way because she doesn't know you that well. I can't say I