observant_ignorance zeke i am open to learning. 051012 ... falling_alone she couldn't have known anything was going on between us that he cheated when we all went out together like a big happy family maybe it doesn't count as cheating if he never kisses thoughts being pondered while his lips barely brush mine and his hands begin to wonder his mouth moves lower and there she sits on the train her head on his shoulder or later his head on her lap waiting to go home to sleep together in the same bed we slept together we walked the streets past stores and i ignored the traffic him following my lead and the girlfriend calling out warnings who do you trust more jokingly i dont know. wrong answer. 051012 ... z do not know, listen 051122 ... unhinged i'm used to this face the one i set in abject indifference as my heart cracks gorged i've lost the will to talk it leaves me at a moment's notice i want to get away from myself standing on the outside staring in on myself distanced i want to get away from myself you wanted a girl to tell you no when all i know how to say is yes change me and i'll change you back scratched when all i wanted was your arms around me does it make you feel better to know i'm taken care of now without you and i'll live my life in observant ignorance my silent admission too much for your intent gaze putting my walls up again i stare straight ahead eyes glazed 051122 ... unhinged scratch 'i'm taken care of now without you' 060110 ... unhinged scratch 'my silent admission too much for your intent gaze' and add something like wordless_conversations that can't make sense or something like that 060110 ... z decide later 060111 ... z begin always 060204 ... daxle the more we let go of our ideas about "the way things are" the more we are actually able to observe clearly ignorance is bliss, if you're aware of its existence 060204 ... z hear something new. 060908 ... () ( i begin, new to this new day; learning to receive each moment now. ) 061205 ... thieums Ignorance is not the fact of not knowing But the fact of not knowing you do not know Observe... 080518 ... unhinged ( dramatic_irony or something like that) 080518 ... - - 090317 what's it to you? who go blather from