obituary gertrude sting i found myself locked in despair when the bullet train ran over the most important part of my newspaper. my only newspaper. you are sweet and neat and i love you and love reading your name in my only newspaper. 020915 ... Freak : teenage girl's will to live dies of depression : 020916 ... celestias shadow Those ones that take up half a page scare me. I hope mine is short and interesting. 031216 ... Soma What do you want to be remembered for? Things you've done, things you've made, lives you touched? If you were writing your own obituary, what's the first sentence look like? I want to be that person who revolutionizes someone else's life for the better. 170928 ... unhinged no birthday card from you this year no $50 check but when i dig it's not the money i will miss you were unwavering you were steadfast unswerving i complained about my job and with no hesitation you said at least you have work my german grandmother that grew up during the great depression with twelve siblings and a dead beat dad never gave up she survived cancer twice she crocheted baptismal clothes for every baby in the family the huge extended family she paddled my ass she paid for my sisters college but refused to pay for mine she called my mother a dumb polack to her face repeatedly but when i wanted to give up she passed me a little of her determination with the teutonic tough love i was used to and said go buy a new coat with the money i sent you and got back to her knitting and her lifetime movies her unfiltered cigarettes and her copd her phlegmy cough and her gravel voice her characteristic abrupt departure i gotta go nic ok gram i love you love you too nic bye bye (barely a year has passed since you have and the pain of having only the memory of you now still incapacitates me. family matters. thanks for being part of mine) 171008 what's it to you? who go blather from