not_enough_pain so fucking lost blood sheeting down my shoulder pouring out my shirt not enough pain. it doesnt hurt enough. like an alcoholic who needs more each time these slices no longer help. salt. handfuls of salt smashed into the slices pain for a while as the blood turns the salt to pink to red but then the pain dulls again and the blood dries up holding the cuts to the material i can feel the gentle tugging as i move around. comforting. but it doesnt hurt enough anymore there has to be something else i can do. its not enough pain not enough blood to fix my head anymore 030103 ... applause . 030103 what's it to you? who go blather from