never_before_never_again
burden Holy hell. Situation. Stampeding. Screaming. Walking wounded. Black. A quiet, unyielding anger. Shattered. Beacon. Faceless. Victims. End.

Tomorrow.
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dondeestanlosjaguares time and time again, we go through the same lessons that swirl around us like butterflies in the middle of a spring forest. they try to teach us what we cannot learn, because we are so caught up in everything that we do, we forget to see what is right there in front of us.

never before have i seen destruction storming from within. they say i have a beautiful creative side. well, i guess i do believe them, but not because of what has come from within in me in creation, but because there has to be a perfect balance in my life, and the counter is a terrible destructive side. this side i have seen one too many times before, and because i have experienced what it's like to be in such a state of rage and despair, i know i need something to balance out that dark part of my life. never again do i want to go through such turbulent emotions. i think such darkness has swallowed a good part of my soul, and all i want is for the light to shine upon me. i want to purge such wretched feelings so that i can be left pure and whole again. i want to believe that life is beautiful, like i did once before, when i was in love. never before, never again, is there a chance to give up. i just need to close my eyes right now and take a breath, i need to dream again.
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dondeestanlosjaguares and those dreams still haven't solidified. they are like flickering lights from a wayward moth. but i'm getting used to the strobe-light effect. . . 050520
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