need_help // i need someone who i can love... someone who will love me back, i need the help of another to get through this 010702 ... black-dyed gel product "note to self: sex with blow-up doll is not as good as advertized" 010702 ... yummyC i don't know. I don't think my mom should use a mental institution as a threat. I mean get me something less severe first. get me some help. or don't. i would only be wasting more money because i usually stubbornly refuse to talk to anyone that is hired to listen to me, and isn't doing it merely out of the kindness of their heart. i mean spleen. or maybe i should go to some mental institution. but i have serious doubts as to whether any one can hlp me. I'm not saying i'm so messed up that i am unhelpable...i'm saying that I am the one that has to help me. I am the only person who can change me, and right now I just don't have the will. so any professional help I get will be a waste because i am not willng to stop all this self destructive shit yet. maybe later. if there is a later. there will be. 010709 ... phil I find it difficult to help others, but I am willing to try :) throw out my whole summer if I have to (I am getting paid here aren't I?) good. 020305 ... phil love yourself do alot of things that end in alk 020305 ... g h o s t but who am i going to ask for it? 020305 ... blueberry So do I. And I... can't... stop thinking. 020305 ... littel_elf I went to a counselor for a while. was nice... but then, she was nice. maybe you just need a counselor who you feel actually wants to help you, yummyC. 030220 ... Constance 'alk'? Like walk, talk, balk, chalk? No, no, no, I can't talk about this with anyone, they won't believe me and I can predict what they will tell me to do. I don't want to listen to them. They obviously do NOT really listen to me or they wouldn't think I was a liar. 040221 ... white_wave he needs help. he doesn't believe anyone can. how can I convince him that he won't know until he tries? 040222 ... shpaaaaaaaaaaaa shpaaaaaaaaaaaa 110228 what's it to you? who go blather from