my_world_is_crumbling love & hate and there is nothing i can do to stop it. I keep falling, getting pushed deeper and deeper into this black whole where all meaningness is lost. My heart breaks at every moment of every day. I yearn for the bright warm sun which used to sign and radiate off me. Now it is just a bleak world which i exist in. Nothing is the same anymore, nothing feels the same, except the constant tormenting pain inside my heart and my head. The walls have closed in on me and i am not strong enough to push them away, they are surrounding me, suffocating me, killing me, wont someone please help me. I am dieing here in this world that i was placed in all on my own. No one to comfort me, no one to dry my tears, no one to love me. Just four black brick walls surrounding me and suffocating me until there is nothing left but the shell. The body with which people see Leah as. Just an empty carcus which once was so bright and enthusiastic, now... not anymore... someone please, anyone, is anyone there, please rescue me, save me from these walls which are caving in on me and killing me. 040512 ... ethereal is here. 040512 ... love & hate thankyou, but nothing can save me. It has gone on for too long and too far already. 040512 what's it to you? who go blather from