missing_you becclebee its funny how you miss people sometimes they become a hole empty and sad but ever there or they goes away, not far just out of view until you turn to say something a funny line, a quick hello and then you remember, that place is empty now. and you can be sad and sorry or grin for the knowledge of the one who was there before she was grand 020102 ... sabbie yeah, i think i know that feeling. 020103 ... Sim I know that feeling. This time, though, I'm not going to accept the emptyness. It doesn't have to be there this time. 020103 ... k2 Missin's inevitable With all the hers n' hims But I imagine it''''s grand, The steak that's Sim's 020104 ... Sim Braised, sliced, and skewered on titanium pins; it's a fine cut, indeed. 020105 ... blown cherry Missing you through dark and light, missing you in my aperture of sight. Missing you again, because your heart I cannot find. Missing you again, I am always left behind. Missing you your voice, rings not inside my ear. Missing you your eye, does not at me, curiously peer. Missing you so much, for nothing else I care. Missing you so much, my mind, from you I cannot tear. Missing you is something, I would hardly do if I believed, for a moment, that you were missing me too. 020613 ... birdmad i'll be a ball of fire in your arms --desire (gene loves jezebel) 020613 ... blown cherry A mighty fist clenches at my chest and squeezes and twists painfully. One squeeze for every day since we spoke, one twist for every day since I held you, since I buried my face in your jacket, and felt the tingles run through my body as your lips brushed my neck. 020715 ... fist like a bloody fist, pumping the blood at it's leisure, fisting me. fistfully. 020715 ... Sweet Surrender Im so tired and ready to give up without you. You are my strength. 030411 ... Sweet Surrender amidst I believe it is. 030411 ... niska i used to miss you when you weren't home. then i'd miss you, even when you were. i'm glad i miss you when you're far away for three days. it changes my whole world when you're gone. there's no one to cook breakfast for tomorrow - and i really enjoy that the most. i think when you call, i'll pretend your beside me. 030411 ... ItGirl i never used to miss you, never thought you wouldn't be around... 030714 ... imposter I am. All the time. I feel empty inside. And every time we talk I am so happy to be talking to you, but I always feel like I say the wrong thing and fuck things up. And I'm just so sorry. You used to tell me I always knew the right thing to say. I don't anymore. God, how I wish I did. I wish I still knew what to say and how to charm you and make you smile but I just feel like I make you so unhappy and frustrated and I'm just so sorry. And I love you and I love you and I love you and I just don't understand anymore why you're so angry and why I'm so stupid all the time. And the saddest part is that I know you will never read this. I'm so sorry. God, I love you. I miss you so much. I just don't know anything anymore. 030916 ... jane kissing_you 030917 ... Just_A_Little_Girl i miss you already. i miss how you made me smile in bad times. i miss how you made me feel. i miss how you made me forget everything wrong in my life. i miss how you loved me. i miss how you used to be there. i miss how much i was in love. i miss how you used to care. you turned yur back on me... i dont miss you anymore. 040726 ... Mahayana cuz for some strange reason, no matter how hard i try, i can not view you in the same intense light that i did prior to you cheating on me, ... its killing me inside that no matter how hard i try i can not feel those passionate feelings for you like they once were... the ones where everything inside of me was so alive, i genuinely felt special, i truly did feel as if i could do anything in life that i wanted to ... i felt weird inside when i walked through my days, i felt confident ... able and inspired to do anything but now... ... i feel so uninspired, so unreal, so un-alive. im afraid nothing will ever be the same again. yet i hold on in hopes that someday itll all come back to me. ive lost so much respect for you - yet i still respect you. so much more has happened in-between the time from then, so much that i could never talk about to anyone else. yet im still by your side. trying. waiting. hoping that someday i can feel a tenth of what i used to feel for you. 040726 what's it to you? who go blather from