mental_hospital
lost I feel sorry for thyartshallshant. he is in a mental hospital right now. He is supposed to get out in 3or 4 days. He still wont be back on blather though hes kicked off the computer. 010320
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dB Put me in a haspital for nerves
And then they had to commit me
You told them all I was crazy
They cut off my legs
Now I'm an amputee
God damn you!
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babybat i'd rather be there than here. 010320
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lost true true 010321
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Mushroomman Now that i have been in one, not being in one feels much better. 010722
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Aimee where i belong 010723
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mushroomman When i was there, there were windows
i could look out onto the street, i saw people outside enjoying a brisk walk,
Couples hand in hand, people smoking cigerattes, talking with their freinds
... none of them knew i was looking outside, watching them, wishing i could be on there, the one way windows kept me hidden from outsiders, my freedom had been taken from me, only when i saw what it was like on the inside, did i learn to appreciate the life that i live now.
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D y a n n e I think I would like to live in one not because I was crazy but just for fun I would find it extreamly interesting Im sure I could make some nice friends there haha I at least hope I get to visit one some day if I never get to live in one 020809
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sylvia plath i had hoped, at my departure, i would feel sure and knowledgeable about everything that lay aheadafter all, i had been "analyzed". instead, all i could see were question marks. 020912
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blown cherry great way to make someone feel better.
stick em in a cage filed with crazy people.
And not funny-crazy like in the movies,
but really crazy people.
People who drool, people who no longer care about their appearances, or whether there is menstrual blood all down the back of their gown, people who curse at things unseen,
people who think that everyone around them is evil,
including their family,
husbands and mothers,
evil demons sent from the devil to kill her and her progeny.

mental hospitals are no place for the sick.
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crimson Thinking of asking to get sent there. How sick I am.
I want to die or be locked up. I wouldn't talk or eat or sleep or breathe or think.
Every girl I know has been sent to a mental hospital at least once.
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misstree twice, though i consider the second more of a bonus after the credits from the first.

weighing my options for making it twice for real, because what he said that night still sticks with me:

"if you're going to kill yourself anyway, you might as well go in. either it helps, and you change your mind, or it doesn't, and it all ends the same way anyway."

last time i was there, last time hope was well and truly dead, it helped. but the two different hospitals were night and day, and the second was hell, and death would be better than going back there.
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Doar . 060531
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LS . 060531
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sympathetic bird and double "."

well-wishes to ya, dear tree.
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stork daddy yall are smart. i've never been in a mental hospital, but i'm pretty sure i'll eat a gun by 30. 060531
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mike who ever took my bucket bring it back yarr 060601
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