let_down megan i can't do it anymore every time we have problems it's the exact same thing does he love me enough to change? how can words hurt me so bad i can feel them running down my cheeks in tears? doesn't he understand? and the love, oh the love i have for him. it goes above and beyond anything i have ever known. he knows i could never leave him, is that why he feels safe in doing anything he pleases? i wish i could say exactly what i mean, but there's really no words for it. just this feeling in the pit of my stomach that gets deeper every time i hear or see those words again. i wish he'd come back to me and stay i wish i could make him happy enough to want to 030923 ... Lemon_Soda You can love a snake to tears, but it will always try to bite you. 030924 ... Aryon What do we say when our lives burn around us? How do we express ourselves in times of need? Why do we live and fight for those we do not want to fight for? Who deems it their responsibility to choose what is right or wrong? When is it our turn to live the life that is intended for us? Where will we end this journey of nothingness? 090329 ... In_Bloom We are bits and pieces Flotsam and jetsam We ebb in and out of one another, occasionally catching Sticking for some while Joy And then there's the letdown But it's more a release where you fall Or crash or burn or collide Cut loose and wanting warmth Until you come to rest again in the arms of someone who asks you, "how did you find me?" Or out of the corner of your eye You perceive a glint Could be dust or a sound, like chimes And there it is, smiling at you You reach out your arms to receive them and you ask, "how did you find me?" 090330 ... . . 090330 ... no reason i don't want to need to stop getting my hopes up 090812 ... Hsg Without breaking 090813 ... unhinged *sigh* my cut_and_run impulse strong these days and for practical reasons also i don't see myself with him for the rest of my life but he sees himself with me for the rest of his something is telling me the let_down would be easier now rather than later 090813 ... unhinged but it wasn't easy at all not even a little bit 090821 what's it to you? who go blather from