late_night
andrea after living through the wickedness
life has to offer, things like that should
not seem so bad. but, I find myself
constantly being irked by stupid
little things. for one, other peopleís
idiosyncrasies ruffle my feathers and
put me on edge. hypocritically, I
expect mine to be accepted-no
questions asked. still another, I
sometimes wish to deny, to steal
what fortune others possess, so I
could ultimately live my goal as
the greatest woman in the world.
but despite my aspirations, I donít
do anything to further my progress
and to start the steps towards making
my childhood dreams become reality.

copyright 2000
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apr!l sometimes the mood is thoughtful, and i can't help but succomb to it....little things to irritate me, little things to keep me up, my goodness, i ruminate like it's my J-O-B.....i didn't realize how good life was until i couldn't get to sleep yesterday...to think i'd ever forgotten what it was like to be me... my god, i've fallen into my same old disgusting routine..... 000904
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fortwoitis Going through some old records tonight.
Found several versions of Gershwin's
"Porgy and Bess" opera but none will do. I hope i haven't lost the good one. I heard four other versions until
i stumbled on the one that works for me. Same music, but totally different,
because the arrangement is so much
better....if only i could find the damn
record.
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syd barrett LATE NIGHT

When I woke up today
and you weren't there to play
then I wanted to be with you
when you showed me your eyes
whispered love at the skies
then I wanted to stay with you
inside me I feel alone and unreal
and the way you kiss will always be
a very special thing to me...

When I lay still at night seeing
stars high and light
then I wanted to be with you
when the rooftops shone dark
all alone (I) saw a spark
spark of love just to stay with you
inside me I feel alone and unreal
and the way you kiss will always be
a very special thing to me...

If I mention your name
turn around on a chain
then the sky opens for you
when we grew very tall
when I saw you so small
then I wanted to stay with you
inside me I feel alone and unreal
and the way you kiss will always be
a very special thing to me
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ever dumbening i think the reason i avoid going to bed so often is because sleep is the last thing separating me from dealing with tomorrow. 091130
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