jm m_e i am so bumming. why doesn't he want to be with me? things were so good. _ gets to be with _. is it because they're having sex? i doubt it. what if i had had sex with him? i am so glad that i didn't. i like him, though. a lot. i look forward to seeing him. always. last night he looked great. his hair is getting longer, his cheeks were red. i thought that he had been drinking, but no. i should know better. at least his friends liked me. yeah. . . i think that he thinks that i'm just a pain now. gosh, i don't understand. we were so good together; we had so much fun. i loved everything about being with him. i loved laying on him. him on the couch and me on him, and we'd watch cartoons with _ and it'd be great. and we'd kiss and we'd see each other in the mirror and we'd lay in bed in morning together. i could lay there and watch him sleep for hours. it was so nice. gosh i hate that things had to change. i thought things were going so well. i obviously thought wrong. it's still nice to see him. it would be nice if we could hang out sometime. i liked him mostly for who he was; i don't want a physical relationship with him. no. that would not be healthy. friends, that never happens though. 011111 ... redneckk fuck all day, FUCK ALL NIGHT! that's how we do it in these partz!@ my sluts like my figgas 011117 ... yoink patterson 011117 ... m_e now that sounds really pathetic. more pathetic than in actuality. i always thought that the beauty of blather was the ambiguity in interpertation, but now i see that a lot of the actual meaning can be lost. therefore, let me retract my previous statement. it may be in blather history forever, but only with a disclaimer. 011215 ... yoink jab me 020109 ... ClairE jiffy meister 020110 ... yoink this is weird to look at right now 060124 ... haha! Please... :P 090303 ... ye what is wrong with me? I deny you, for no real reason, because all my instincts return... & whichever way I go, I come back to the place you are. I get so tired of working so hard, for my survival. so much wasted time, & the moment keeps slipping away... I look to my time with you, to keep me awake and alive. without a noise - without my pride. I reach out from the inside. I want to be that complete. 090329 ... In_Bloom ye That's beautiful 090330 ... eee ... 090527 what's it to you? who go blather from