it_was_all_i_could_think_to_do blown cherry I ignored you today. It was all I could think to do. I ran away. It was all I could think to do. As I left the building, walked towards my car, the tears were forming before I'd gone 3 metres. It was all I could think to do. I got in my car and pounded my fists against the steering wheel, because it was all I could think to do. I cried out in anguish (anguish at what in particular I don't know) because it was all I could think to do. I let the tears roll down my face. It was all I could think to do. I drove home steering with blurred teary vision. It was all I could think to do. I got home and lay on my bed letting the anguished tears and cries escape, because it was all I could think to do. I fell asleep and dreamed of you. It was all I didn't even have to think to do. I sit at the computer and read other peoples words, because it's all I can think to do. I sit and hurt and cry while I read, because it's all I can think to do. I keep crying. Because it's all I know how to do. 020310 ... Syrope it was all i could think to do when i kissed you so unexpectedly that first time it was all i could think to do when i wanted you to have me so badly that rainy night to ignore the pain it was all i could think to do when it hurt so much that i *couldn't* think to give you an ultimatim it was all i could do to keep from loving you again...sometimes all i can do just isnt enough. 020310 ... pushpins oh dude blown cherry, that was awesome. pardon my hip lingo... it was all I could think to do when i saw you. I had misplaced my carfully constructed monologue and I was unprepared, you caught me like a deer in headlights. All the times I promised myself that I would be strong, and i would show you I was better now, that I'm not a mess because you left me... all those times were sucked away into the air and the molecules were too small I couldn't catch the bits of me that were just floating around lazily as if it weren't time to panic. the tears streamed down my cheeks and even down my nose because even in my sadness there is enormous imperfection. matter does not just disapear chemistry class told me so. It always exists, it just changes. so You aren't really gone. somewhere, the essence of who i loved is hiding. I thought when i looked into your eyes I would be able to see him. but I just caught a stone gaze that tore me in two. your apathy is the worst thing i have ever had to live through. But living was all I could think to do. 020310 ... blown cherry ta muchly pushpins :) I liked your ending, v good. 020310 what's it to you? who go blather from