international_mail unhinged i received gifts in the mail today. they were wonderful gifts. books that speak to my soul. pictures of angels, words. they made me cry. such beautiful books. i would make her a snow sab but there isn't any snow. i would send her my reciprocal gift but it's one hundred miles away under my bed. thank you so much sabbie dear. your gifts and your handwriting brightened my day. PEACE ANGELS i remember when i came here the landing was very soft i remember you were there with me i opened my eyes hello it was a long journey and this was a new place but it was ok beause i was not alone - you were there. i always saw you, you and your friends shapes and blurs of light and warmth. i giggled and spun with the newness i could fly i was a king where did you go? i remember feeling heavy the day i went to sleep i remember...what do i remember? you know the feeling not sad or happy sort of in the middle of nothing. i had teachers now, teachers i could see they told me you only existed in books that real people knew better than to believe in fantasy and i believed them i forgot you i remember yearning the dreams i had the sleep-wake existence when i couldn't tell the difference when everything was fine no, really, i'm fine i'm just a little tired. i was feeling empty i don't know why waiting for you to show yourself to remind me that you are here always so i searched seek and ye shall find. i looked for you at the movies... on the television... in magazines and on walls...everywhere but i could not find you. memory is strong like a computer chip. we are all computers who hold the memory banks of the universe and if you search you will find a snapshot, a glimmer, a little hint of something greather than this. and that is where i found you laughing and smiling playing peek-a-boo. oh i missed you so much. but i was always here, i never went away. who made the slippery rocks dry... who made the waves softer who stopped that car... who made you jump so high who washed away the fever... who loved you to life? you are never alone drink your tea stop worrying it's already fixed take steps, make decisions don't be afraid. remember who you are the one you see in your dreams the one you love the one you forgive. for when you look into my eyes you see yourself. you see i have never left you i will never leave you we are together always every step every breath until the last. and when you leave i will come with you on another adventure. you are good company i like being around you take me with you yes -----Antoinette Sampson it made me cry so sabbie. it just isn't right without the pictures. thank you oooohhh sooooo much. *HUG* 020128 ... sabbie the pictures are beautiful, arnt they? thats one of my favorite books. if you look at the supermarket page [i always saw you, you and your friends] you can see vegemite on the shelves. and when i grow up i want a crown like the [where did you go] page. and the [real people knew better] are all boys in suits and the [memory banks of the universe] are all women. my mum pointed that out. one of my favorite pages is the [dont be afriad] page with the coal miner wearing little girls fairy wings, and the next page with the angel laughing. and the [every breath] page is such a beautiful photograph... ok, so actually i love every page and its one of the most beautiful books i have ever seen. i was joyed that i could share it with you. .:hugs recieved and graciously returned:. 020129 ... unhinged it all just reminds me of my grandma and my arielle.... *shakeshead* but they sure are beautiful photographs. 020129 what's it to you? who go blather from