srealismas not make believe
consider it a matter of pride to stand up against them, (if you have the right footing.)
defeat is always theirs, when they are fighting from a small mind.
if at one point, you decided not to grow, you must accept that you didn't, and, at your best, not seek out the weak to make a point about your soul, in that relative way of speaking and proving things.
this i must do. do not seek small-minded, even if that is what you have at your fingertips. find new friends. hope that they'll talk to you. even though you give the impression that you must must be blacklisted.
(talking to myself here! of course of course.)