in_your_absence_i_remain
sabbie still here 020801
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neverender ...calm but wondering where you've gone off to. 020801
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loqueolvidas cold and covered with a fine layer of dust 020801
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ClairE restless, bored, lonely, unsettled, and snappish.

Twelve days until I see you again.
020805
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rosemary cynical 020805
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Kate smiling when I see movies about Russia, because you love Russia and Russian literature, and exuberant whenever I check the mailbox. I remain contemplating truth and virtue here while you do the same, there. 020805
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Mahayana for ever and a day the purpose,
on the lookout for |entreat| longing,
waking in the hours of darkness,
proverbing your person's name
impatient slumber, the constant dreaming
only to retrieve in the illumination of morning ...
after all ... everythings still unaffected
021122
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Mahayana |i am|, in |your| absence, fragmentary ...
each daylight hour too |meaningless|, each hour of darkness too elongated,
ensuing |shadow|s downstairs an empty street
|thinking|, each curve |i| transform |will be the one|
where youll be waiting for me.

before you
ahead of you
behind you

|||| || ||||i am your meaningless shadow thinking i will be the one||||||| || |
021122
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silent storm :( 021122
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phil (disasterous burning garden)
(wraps around the globe)
(the disfigured body of a sinner)
(ungratified from his works)
with gutted love (in plastic)
limbo's red booth
dark cascading rain wavering your form
splashing out knickles
for calling soft dispelling lips
hoping for a return
021122
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from