in_that_moment_god_spoke_to_me Arwyn and he told me, "I'm sorry sweetheart, no matter how hard you try, no matter what you do, you're never going to make it here." I sat down and cried my heart out. From that day on, everyone I knew stared at me as though I had a giant 'A' branded to me. Hester Prynne in a different time. Only I hadn't slept with a priest, I hadn't committed adultery... I just don't understand what I've done. But at least I know that I don't have to try anymore. I don't have to worry about my fate, seeing as how it's decided. I can do what I want. I can be as reckless as I want, I can be as fancy free as I want. I could dance naked in a field without fear of eternal retribution.. because I already know it's coming. I could just fucking give up. I could hurt every single person I've ever known 6 times over and it won't make a difference cause I'm not going to heaven anyway. 020311 ... sabbie and he said "sab, dont hassel jesus." 020311 what's it to you? who go blather from