in_her_eyes
forever When i look into her eyes in old photographs and i look at her eyes now they are not the same. Two years ago when she graduated highschool. She knew everything, she new what she wanted and knew what she needed. She had her life planned out. she was happy and loved. There was no line weather someone was her friend or not. she new it all. She used to know everything. Now i look at her eyes and i don't see that. I see a scared sister, someone who is afraid of the world, afraid to make desisoins and afraid to stand out. She doesn't know what she wants anymore, and her friend she does not know weather they are or not anymore.

i hate this change. I used to se my big sister, who i loved. Who knew everything and knew what she wanted. I used to look at her eyes and want to be who she is who she was. But now i can't look at her eyes with out crying, with out wondering. what is causeing her so much pain. She tries to hide it but i can see past.I can see past the mask, and i can see inside to this confused lady, who does not know anythign any more. And i cry as i watch my sister fall apart not knowing what to do.
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MaxWorld Could you be any more melodramatic?! After highschool, things aren't the same, you can't look at life like you are 14 years old. You can't pretend that nothing matters. Her eyes have changed because she has. She's growing up like a normal human being. And I'm glad you want everything to be ok in her life. That you are a loving caring sister. (mine sure isn't) but you can't change the fact that she has seen the world the way it is now. You'll see someday soon. 010722
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forever thanks. it does mean a lot. I guess it just scares me when i see how much she has changed. Why did you say 14 years old? 010812
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rage she used to look at me as i looked at her
so full of love and caring
now i shut her out, and when she looks at me all i see is the pain and confusion
the hurt and sadness
i have caused
when all she wants is to love again
in her eyes she dies as i do
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