im_so_sorry AntiJester sorry for everything, even the things i have no control over. but not you. you're not apologetic at all. 040124 ... no reason for myself. i really, really am. if i could go back and start over, i would. in a second. 040124 ... Syrope i'm sorry about your cat. i wanted to tell you, but then there'd be this odd expanse of "so now what?" silence, so i'll just post it here and wonder if you still read my blathes. i want you to know that i don't blame you, i'm not mad at you, but i just can't...it hurts me so much so i have to stay away. and i didn't ever intend to write this blathe. something about watching the snow made me want to ease your pain. thank you for the past almost-4 years. i wouldn't not get involved with you if i had it all to do over again. i might change some things but i'd still want to know you. 040125 ... Borealis what_would_you_do_if_you_werent_afraid JdAwG I'd tell you how much you truly mean to me. 040601 ...... it feels like a substance abuse problem...it really does.... is in withdrawl 040826 ... guess who giving up maybe you need withdrawal. to realise that a problem exists. an addiction maybe? 040826 ... kj i had to hide my heart from you and wouldn't let you in. if i could do it all again i would change it but then every thing else would change too and then where would we be? 040826 ... yoke where would you be? 041007 ... love & hate that you dont want to fight for us, to fight for something real, something we believe in, something pure and less mundane than this existance which we supposively have. 041008 what's it to you? who go blather from