i_woke_up_again_today monsoon chord in e minor throw a nine to the dogs. knowlege and seemingly endless velocity dry up my skin like a salted potato chip lying in a pool of greasy blood with two shriveled wings lying askew a few feet away. 030126 ... god mmmm potato chips. me too! 030126 ... monsoon thanks god. 030126 ... x fuck 030126 ... nore i can't believe god blathered this one before i did. this is so not fair. 030127 ... one for the road and i didn't want to go out fucking snow!! 030127 ... birdmad the alarm went off and there is work on my desk that needs doing but i'm still sitting here in my house 15 minutes late and only getting later (it's a good thing that they like me and the quality of the work i turn out enough that i can get away with it) debating whether or not to call in sick because my_head_feels_like_it's_on_wrong 030127 ... Syrope after my nap and realized i'd slept through calc. i just...for the first time in my life...know what i should do, but am still not doing it. 030127 ... minnesota_chris what should you do? 030128 ... angie draped so comfortably around you with my head lying on your shoulder so close to me u reminded me of the day we woke up took showers and went back to bed till dinner damn schedules and classes... you make me want to breathe the very air that u exhale water cascades as i am protected by your embrace in paradise 030128 ... silentbob despite my better judgement 030128 ... littel_elf despite the fact I died tomorrow 030203 ... ship blinding this light shatters through the window pain where we're standing press my fingers to the glass your eye's have fallen away fallen again take my hand everything is turning white don't mind the blood on my sleeves. we're here now. we're no where else. if you fall you can fall on me. 030220 ... Syrope i don't remember, minnesota_chris i_woke_up_again_today this keeps HAPPENING to me i don't deserve another chance 040419 ... x i pressed snooze 4 times recovering from nightmares recovering from the night before preparing for work convincing myself this is the first job i've had where i didn't slack and over sleep and cop out true love 040419 ... megan and another one of my friends died today and my heart hurts when i breathe can't beat grandma's problems :) 040420 ... minnesota_chris but you can beat grandmas... 040420 ... birdmad with a Stolichnaya hangover and fighting the urge to puke as Shadow loudly yacked up a hairball in my doorway ompounding Shadow's loud "LRK! LRK! LRK! BYEAAOOW!" a she coughed it up (which mystified the hell out of me after all the time i spend brushing her) was Tonya reminding me loudly that the crack of dawn = feeding time. MEEER! ...pause, nudge my chin with her head, get closer to my ear...REEOW-WAAOOWR! NGURR MRRREER! MEE-MEW? purr to soften the impact and then repeat louder than the first time until i acquiesce and drag myself out of bed 040420 ... poppy i like the way it makes me feel even if it only lasts awhile even if i break my neck per chance i might really be happier DEAD but it isn't happening so...my time 040420 ... love & hate I am sick of this. Sick of this feeling, sick of this pain, sick of this lifestyle, sick of these people, sick of this life, sick of the hurt, sick of the frustration, sick or everything but her. I woke up again today with new scars down my arm. But tomorrow will be a different story. I wont wake up from my dream of being with her, forever. My dream will become reality, but a reality that is completely unlike the reality that we all know. Tomorrow, i wont wake up. 040421 ... Splinty damn 040812 ... anomalous in pain 050512 ... bloody potato chip i got a girl named truly-ruley. 050512 ... tonya i_got_a_cat_named_tonya 050512 what's it to you? who go blather from