i_watched_love_die_in_my_doorsteps
6am "...did i ever tell you about the time i watched love die on my doorstep? i'm sorry, i should have let you in."

i love that line so much, i thought i i knew the poem by heart but when the moment came and love was at my doorstep i watched it go away. does that mean i didn't understand what the poem meant? do i just like the way it sounds?
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x i've been so cruel 031118
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steel flower girl #2 please, who is the author of that poem? 031119
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amy it's science attractions, unfortunately. with any hope, it's a part of our history (in possibility). 031119
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nikolai google http://www.shihanthepoet.com/wst_page10.html 031123
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. hmm. can't find this poem anymore.
shame. it sounded intriguing.
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jane oe once said

i watched my innocence die a thousand times

& it's always stuck in my head
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rage if id opened the door it would have died inside 070506
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pSyche is this the poem?



Generations upon a time history wore an ugly face and scared love to unlearn itself. and now i find it hard to dreamcause i have a problem with ghosts and it seems her scent still exists on my pillowcase. i used to live on her lips. she broke the mold when she cracked a smile and when she smiled i exhaled rainbows and for 2 years i was a kid again. but with that came the irresposibilities. i don't remember how i forgot to love but i did. did i ever tell you about the time i watched love die on my doorstep? i'm sorry, i should have let you in.
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rage wow. almost reminds me of the beautiful psyki 070506
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misstree "i don't remember how i forgot to love but i did."

that one sentence makes me ache.
"everybody_knows" by cohen did the same thing earlier.

there is the loveliest boy on my porch, curled and patient and kind and delicious, but somehow, i know he's a for_now, not a for_ever.

i wonder if that One has already come and gone, and if the rest of my path is to be walked with cherished company of kindred spirits, but no Mates.

if i could only remember
how i forgot.
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