i_want_to_cry____ little joe I want to cry, no more than that, I want to curl in a ball sigh deeply and wonder where the world I knew went my comfort and background security are gone the backdrop of my life spins in a different direction its frightening, or maybe just sad maybe I should just curl under the desk and wait what for? a brighter tomorrow no, this wont go away my heart sinks in my chest as I lower my eyes 021015 ... Freak and a no good very bad day well, I did. But now. I want to beat the shit out of you instead. But sense you ran away. I can't. So I guess I will continue hurting myself. 021016 ... unhinged but she's sitting right next to me and i don't want her to pretend like she cares. 021016 ... little joe i lift my eyes again i take a deep breath my chest hurts as it expands, but not as much the backdrop is still different darker and less certian than it was i decide to go on for that is all i can do my backdrops will forever continue to change i will choose to deal with it but hope that the backdrop doesn't fall under the wieght it carries 021017 ... hey now! but im dehydrated 021018 ... silent storm I want all this shit to be over with. Just so I can get on with my life. Peacefully, Lovingly, Living for and with the woman who has shown me the meaning of real love. 021018 ... blue star because my life is too boring to be hard and it fucking is anyway. 021018 ... unhinged . the tears i cry for you cut my face why am i the only human in this place your knife didn't get too far it hit the scar the past has made in my heart did you really think it would be ok to make me your third wheel? even scar_tissue has some feeling and it feels like you cracked a little more of the living part i will be your boat even when it kills me i will carry you across your waters of suffering and be content to offer the vessel of love that got you there 070114 what's it to you? who go blather from