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pSyche Just so you know,
we don't blame you.
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laced that's good to hear 070219
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laced They say to never fall in love, yeah you’ll be lonely, but It won’t hurt so much. Thing is, I already fell and I already failed you, and as much as you are struggling with that I am struggling with that because it’s something I can’t change, though f I could it would be the one thing I would take back because we’ve come so far. I don’t want to go anytime soon, trying to find someone with eyes like yours and just as many blows to your heart, trying to feel like it’s the same thing. Really, I’ve just been sitting here thinking about how I never know how to say the things I should and about how I can’t really explain why I hurt you, because that might hurt you more I know that it’s no use having a war you can’t win, but this is one battle I must go to, because I’m fighting to hold together my heart and you hold all the things in it. This is one of those things I feel I’ll never recover from, one of those things that, if ever I get to heaven, I’m going to find God and ask him why I have these things in my chest, why I destroy the things I touch, why I can’t see any day without you. I dreamt that you'd forgiven me and woke up with real regret for the first time in ages. I can't look at myself in the mirror, can't talk much. I really feel like screaming, but this city's too small and my walls are too thin. That’s fatalistic, better yet, dramatic, but it’s what’s real to me right now. I’ve been trying to write it out of me but there aren’t enough words in any language. 070910
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