i_scream_aloud endless desire i scream because im killing time my friend murdering my soul and all you defend i scream my suffering won't end i scribble down my pain but these words will never mend i scream the hope i find's pretend i cant seem to see the way but my pieces i do send. i scream. 030604 ... Rowbes ice_cream_aloud was there 030604 ... endless desire hahah i knew someone would say i was thinking that the whole time too and to tell you the truth, it made my hungry for ice cream. 030604 ... a sweet girl i scream, you scream, we all scream, for ice cream. my grandfather used to say this every time we made banana splits. when he was in the hospital, dying, we made banana splits. i know it made him very sick afterward, and i wish my mother never shared that with me. it was our tradition, and he loved me so much that nothing but that mattered. he was one of the most important people in my life. he taught me to be strong, independent and proud. he also taught me that nothing else matters by the time you've made up your mind. i have never missed anything the way i miss his love. he will forever be a mentor to me, even though he is long gone. 030607 ... minnesota_chris There's important things like having banana splits with your grandkids, and less important things like staying healthy. 030607 ... a sweet girl the ice cream made him sick because he was 85 and going through chemotherapy. he couldn't eat anything without his body rejecting it. he died from cancer. no diet in the world would have changed this. 030607 ... endless desire i'm lucky. i've never really had to experience anyone dying in my family. i really don't know what it would do to me. 030607 ... a sweet girl you will face the reality that you will never spend time with that person again. and it will hurt. you will be looking forward to a future of missing someone you care about, and you will be upset. then hopefully, in time you would come to accept their absence as natural. and throughout the rest of your life, take all the memories that made that person worth missing, wherever you go. and you will sometimes feel sadness that they are gone, but understand the time until we all see each other is not so far off, compared to the eternity we are told we will all inveitably share in the end. and if eternity is a fable, then none of it matters at all, so there's no choice but to keep on living on the happiness that person gave you. but yeah, having all the people you love remain in your life throughout yours is certainly lucky. some friends of our family lost a child recently, which is the worst thing i could ever imagine can happen to a family. it was heartbreaking and devestaing. but, at the memorial service, their youngest son, who is nine, said "he's lucky becuase someday when my mom and dad die, i won't have any family left, but he had one his whole life!" kids say the darndest things. 030608 ... a sweet girl that blathe would probably have been more suitable for the page "death". sorry. carry on screaming... 030608 ... endless desire sometimes blathes turn into more important things and more important topics than my whining or screaming. or anyone else's for that matter. so i appreciate what you have to say on the topic. because i know very little about it. 030608 ... a sweet girl nothing in the world is more important that your whining or screaming. and don't you forget it. 030608 ... endless desire yay it's good to know the world revolves around me! ((someone should let my parents know. . .they seem to be a bit mistaken. . .and well, i'd hate for them to be embarrassed)) 030608 what's it to you? who go blather from