i_like_to_pretend
. that all these sentimental and loving notions that are said on blather are you saying them to me. Sometimes I search through archives of blathes that one has blathered under just to play detective. Do the entries seem like you? Are they words you would say? Then I check against gender and whether or not you say it is a him or her that you love. It ends up always not even remotely being a chance of you being the composer. But still I dream ... that you care enough about me to track my words down on blather and make some sort of secret contact with me. Still I dream ... 090130
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three words of_clothes april_taylor i_like_to_pretend 091003
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Ichiro I like to pretend sometimes that she knows I think of her. I like to pretend that nothing needs to be said, but is just known. I like to pretend about a life I dont yet have that includes her. Such fantasies rub salt in the open wounds of loneliness. How do I deaden the pain so that I may survive the time until she arrives? I do not. It is the price of love, and the proof that I do. She will see with her own eyes one day... I am not the same man that I started as. 091104
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shoccolo the same thing, no matter when or why I come back.

the catch 22 of loving you is that I'm sad your words aren't here, where I'm looking. but at the same time, glad you aren't here to read mine.

dumb fear...
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nandita that it doesn't matter anymore. And soon it really won't. 100207
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