i_believed_in_the_world
blueberries if there was faith i lacked, i wondered where i lost it, if it was a treasure slipped through a hole in my baggy pants, a marble bouncing and rolling that i chased and constantly kicked intentionally away from myself until a child picked it up and said,

"is this yours?"
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j_blue with a grain of salt

who hasnt always known disappointment?

if there is anything to beleive in it is that
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unhinged they dig salt out of the ground
around here
to melt the ice
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Nude Star All people are good.
I used to believe that. But now, after seeing and being in the world for a long time, I realise I set my standard too high.
People move in their own circles and occasionaly intrude on someone elses to steal something.
The world is full of lies, hate, fear, anger, ignorance, monotony, boredom, stagnation, self absorbsion.
I don't know if I care for the world anymore. It just seems such a waste of a decently designed bi-pedal species.
You put your faith in gods, governments, media, TV advertising... but not in each other, because the other person is not worthy of faith. and so we keep slipping, further down the spiral if violence and fear.
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megan and_the_poets_dreamed 030729
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Syrope for a little while. i was happy. i felt everything that came towards me and i felt like i'd learned so much.

but i was being lied to by people close to me and by myself. now i listen with only one ear, filtering for lies with the other. and_my_heart ...well, it's not involved at all any more. i don't feel, i don't retain, and i don't believe.
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Fire&Roses I've seen a rich man beg
I've seen a good man sin
I've seen a tough man cry
I've seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie
I've seen the good side of bad
And the downside of up
And everything between
... what it's like
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Deomis but the world refused to believe in me 041022
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Freak where people were good and trustworthy until my innocence was stolen from me. 041022
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