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dafremen From another site:

One by one, I've watched you fall. My "friends." One of lesser ego might put the blame upon himself. I put the blame on noone. But I cannot help but feel this hurt. This sense of betrayal. My Cancer Moon will not be denied it's chance to rant. And so here goes:

YOU! Who swore to be true. You! Who claim honesty and straightforwardness while sticking the knife in and turning, because you do so love a good conflict. You do love to look for dragons to slay and people to be suspicious of. And now, you are tilting your lance at me. Screw you! Be damned with you! I am tired of you cruel, taunting animals with your petty games and your false words and your lies and promises crafted for fools. I am TIRED of your hate and your intrigue and your bullsh**.

You! Who swore to be my friends then abandoned me when I did not see things your way. Go ahead, bat me around like a ping pong ball with your energy games. Alice doesn't give a f*ck what the caterpillar has to say today. Alice has a Cancer Moon. Alice just got cheated on by her spouse. Alice is getting buttbanged by her friends.

You who swore you loved me then brought your critiques against me out in public where you can not only reprimand me, but toy with me.

Cat and mouse, hound and fox. So stupid, so petty, so animalistic and mean. So hurtful and wrong.

Well, here you are. This is what you wanted everyone to see here. Hello everyone at Lindaland, I am NO prophet! Hello! I am no psychic!! Hello! I want no admirers. Hello!!! I'm a F****** human being!

Here you are Lindaland...look at how a friend injecting just a little energy can make the "oh-so-wise" Dafremen jump around like a buffoon!!!

LOOK EVERYONE AT LINDALAND! I AM NOT PERFECT!!! WHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

There catwoman. IS that beter? Is that what you hoped to accomplish?

Did you think that by taking away the one thing that I had left in this world besides my TWO remaining friends, my son and my dog that you would acomplish something other than to break a lonely, broken man's heart into even smaller pieces?

Did you think that by taking away my only outlet for this urge to help people (that doesn't open me up to being F***ED IN THE A*** by people like you), that you were serving some noble purpose? Some higher cause?

On behalf of my ENORMOUS EGO, F*** YOU FOR HURTING ME! Enjoy the show. I hope its enjoyable. I hope my blood and tears taste good you f***.

And YOU! Who said you were my brother, then turned away because your insecurities heard rejection in my voice, then went with it. What soothing tone should I have taken in the 50 times I tried to get you to write me?

What words could I have used to tell you how wrong you were about my feelings toward you? You STONE hearted analytical f***. How DARE you deny my loyalty? How DARE you spin your pettiness and suspicious delusions off on me? Those are your intentions, those are YOUR motives, not mine.

How dare you be so animal when I've taken you into my heart as brothers and sisters?!

And YOU, who I gave my life to. You! Who received the best of my days. To the winds with you, you backstabbing piece of crap. Back to whatever nest of vipers hatched you.

My soul cannot take the likes of you anymore. This heart cannot hold anymore pain. Can't you see that by the way it keeps SLOPPING over into my words as you twist the knives you miscreant sh**bags??!!

F*** you and your needs for the moment. I am loneliness and pain in the raw. I am hurt and suffering, empathy, loyalty and compassion discarded. I am torn between my need to love you and my desire to forget you.

Leave me be. Stop trying to chase me away from my few solaces. Stop hounding me you dogs. (But you won't. This post will call you like fresh blood, with more little underhanded digs that only you and I will understand. You'll go for the throat, behind the scenes. While to the casual observer, you will seem almost civil and pleasant. HOWZ THAT FOR SHOOTING STRAIGHT YOU IGNANIMOUS B****? Go ahead, fill the questions thread with chatter. Take that from me. Delete it. Better yet. Let me. That IS what you wanted...no? Fine. It is done. Dafremen Answers Five Questions is no more. I will delete it today.)

And so there you have it. My overreaction to your stupidity and lack of tact, you neanderthal disguised as a person of refinement. You knew I'd overreact. So don't even waste your breath saying the words. You patronize me with your hidden motives. You and your plausible denial. You politician. That isn't too much credit to give you. Not by a long shot. That is EXACTLY the sort of games that venom tipped arachnids like to play. F*** you.

Now hear this:

I will continue to write. I will write what I feel. I will write what I beleive. And if those beliefs should change? Then I will change what I write. And if you don't like it? That is no longer of any concern to me.

There is my pain. Have at me you mongrels.

Done.

That was my rant. I hope you will forgive me for the harsh tone of my words. I am hurt, in my time of greatest pain. And I have been kicked when I was down by you, who I trusted and love.

Thank you for the space to rant. Sorry if it was over the top.
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