how_he_makes_me_feel andrea there's something so commanding about the way you carry yourself carry me through my days through my nights through the bedroom door something so powerful i want to turn the tables want to crush you, for once, in the palm of my hands in the tightness of my grip in the reality of us there's something so odd about the mood between us between your life & mine between my hand & the one that never touches it copyright 2000 000501 ... loe desperate. and alone, all the time 000627 ... jennifer pretty much like how_she_makes_me_feel 000627 ... Mika Dazed and dazzled so confused and all at once. Suddenly i'm living a dream and i don't know how it happened 000628 ... daxle he makes me feel like that small undentifyable animal squirming around in the middle of the road, run over over and over but not dead- just suffering he makes me feel like throwing something he makes me feel like hurting myself he makes me feel like shit because I know I will stay with him he makes me feel like I may never be able to stop crying 000629 ... bownan He makes you feel bad... have you though about moving ?? Life is way to short to remain trapped in other peoples dramas...living (and commenting) is easy from the cheap seats though, so perhaps you should just ignore me. After all I'm just a voice from the void...and if we listened to all the voices we hear but cannot see then..... 000629 ... Mikala 4 000827 ... jennifer how he makes me feel? how he makes me feel? as if i think about nothing else? i have this very secret thing deep inside of me, that i barely show myself, let alone anyone else. and it's guarded with gates and locks and barbed wire and electric fences and no key, no pick, no tool can pry it open; they can't even come close. and then as if he owns it, he walks right through the barriers and swims in my SECRET TREASURE. without even asking. without even knowing. he makes me feel: inadequate and undesirable. not because he treats me poorly, but because he doesn't treat me at all. i love him and i need him and i want to care for him and hold him and listen to his hopes/dreams/fears, but... he doesn't love me back. 000827 ... dls insignificant angry threatening, small fist raised upward; defiant. please don't step on me. 010414 ... PCD childhood angst carried forward to adult status. railing against the mighty. failing, always failing to meet the tape measure of his will. therefore, do not take this experience and make your mind up to not repeat. continue the viciousness, the anger, the yelling, the display of evil intent. repeat, repeat, repeat when you should instead erase the memory you hold so closely in mind and heart by not allowing yourself to continue in his image. poor dls, poor sad, sick, little boy, poor poor boy 010423 ... dls sometimes you may be right; on a surface level. convenient categories to fit someone in will always delude you. continue to categorize. i watch in amusmant. 010425 ... yummyC 1. annoyed 2. guilty 010725 ... daxle he makes me feel like a trash back out on the sidewalk, plus all the stuff I said before other than staying with him because I am not good enough for his fuckedupness anymore 010725 ... Aimee complete 010726 ... bijou like broken_bottles. in a good glass-breaking-in-the-street sort of way. violent and beautiful. 010730 ... Gollum any of you fine ladies free Friday night? 010730 ... Davey (of Daveys Uptown Theatre and Ramblers Club) Like a silly little kindey-gardner. Whee! 010731 ... Madame Justine I can't live without him. I would die if anything ever happened to him. I would want the world to end. Me killing myself wouldn't be enough of a sacrifice to him. I would want the whole world to go with us. But I'd want us to be alone for eternity. When we die, maybe we'll float together, somewhere, alone. I want him now. He's two hundred miles away. I would die just to see him now. I need him more than I've ever needed anything in my life. It isn't like craving drugs. With drugs it's like hunger. You WANT something, but deep down you know you can go a little bit longer without it. I can't go any longer without him. I can't breathe without him. I spoke to him tonight. I melted. Something inside me leaves every time I speak to him. Common sense perhaps? I've never been this in love before. Infact, in retrospect, I've never been in love before. He's my world. He doesn't understand. He doesn't even think I love him. He's the most beautiful person I've ever met. He is EVERYTHING. 010824 ... distorted tendencies comfortable and warm. (although sometimes his mere presence makes me..ansy.) 010824 ... chocolate bootay He makes me feel... well.. how does God make you feel? 010824 ... Aimee Steve makes me feel worthless. Arthur makes me feel like a whore. Brendan makes me feel like an empress. Dave and Dan give me butterflies. John and Ryan make me feel endangered. Jon completely confuses me. Tim makes me feel completely silly. Christoph baffles me daily (when I only see him maybe once every 6 months) Dave makes me feel perfect. Mike makes me feel insignificant. Andy makes me feel sexual. Paul, Daffy and Bobby make me feel intelligent. Brian makes me feel inferior and self-conscious. But all in all, these wonderful and some not so wonderful men have shaped my life and I thank you all. 010824 ... distorted tendencies Like the North Star. 011006 ... . : * p s y b o r g * : . giddy hyper like having a party ...and all he has to do is smile at me. 011104 ... jestification like a big fat crazy head. like shit. like i don't know how to read people. like i'm way in the clouds and can't see my feet. like i have been wasting my time. like i'm wrong. like i'm 15 fucking years old. like i'm stupid. like i'll never get it right..... but him....he makes me feel like a woman. he makes me feel insanely confident. like i could conquor the world. like i am right. like i am worth more than games. like i should. why do i crave the abuse? 011209 ... ClairE Much more than he should. 011210 ... ilovepatsajak all my armor fallen down in a pile at my feet f.a. 011210 ... Becky Like there's nothing in this world that's really supposed to matter at all... like time will just drip down my arms in slow rivlets... and no one would notice. Everything happens when I'm lost in his eyes... but nothing that would take me away from them. 011210 ... niki giddy...he makes me feel frikin giddy...and i love it!! 011210 ... ClairE "i like him too much" "yes you do" Caffeinated. Like I'm saying too much and yet not at all. Like I really am standing on top of the world and can see right down to the river. Like I hate timing and want to rip its weight off my chest. Cold, like I'm looking straight into the wind. Loneliness is remembering what it's like to be alone and my heart keeps closing the door in my face when I ask him to repeat the first part of that sentence. Like I can be something. 020107 ... kelli crane beautiful useless unimportant replaceable like running away as fast as i can like spending the rest of my life with him. 020113 ... LOLa he says 'i'm not sure what you're looking for but it's a little to the left' 020113 ... girl_jane At times I'll fly, but then I remember that I care what he thinks and get nervous. 020302 ... Jenna comfortable being me. that's remarkably rare. 020303 ... punky brewster guilty. like everything negative in his life is my fault and that everything that was there before we knew each other, I only made worse. he makes me feel like calling him to hear more about what's going on, but at the same time he makes me feel like I'm the last person in the world that he would want to hear from. worried troubled helpless he makes me feel like a bad person. 020303 ... Arwyn I feel like I am the one Goddess on the face of the earth. As if with one glance from me I could make or break someone's life. As though I hold in my power the tilt of the universe. I feel like I could take on the world and win because he says He'll never leave me. I feel like a model, like a beauty queen, I feel intelligent and perfect. I feel like my opinions matter, and I've watched him hang on my every word with the same anticipation that I feel everytime he speaks. *sighs* 020304 ... continuous ache went to see him yesterday, stupid me. i sat on his couch(my couch) and cried. he asked me why. i said i missed him. he pulled me close and we laid together like we used to. he made me feel safe again. so when his hand slid under my shirt and down my body, i welcomed it... stupid me. when it was over, and i was still crying because i knew it wouldn't last, he said, "thanks for that". i asked if that was one last time for him or something, and he smiled and said, "no, that was just for fun....didn't you have fun?" i said no. gullible worthless trash 020304 ... censored angels Thats horrible, I dont like it when people do that. Dont see yourself as worthless becuase wherever you are and whatever you are doing, I know its something wonderful, which is all ive ever wanted for you. 030129 ... DavesHeroinGirl Indescribable. 030129 ... no reason confused i'm so confused and i KNOW the confusion is all my doing and that you have nothing to do with it. the way i feel about you makes me confused, actually maybe i just like to think i'm confused so i don't realize how depressed i might be or could possibly get. i saw you today, like i knew i would, but not after hearing from the others that you had said you were depressed and had a bad day and that you hated the school and just wanted to get your degree and get out of there, and that fucking made me want to cry... i hated that you felt that way, and you really must have, because it's not something you would usually say at all. it just made me love you even more, because i had have never heard of you talking about the way you feel, since you're usually so focused on others...never self-indulgent at all, and it just added that extra aspect of vulnerability, which actually seemed to be gone when i saw you. i guess maybe you felt better or didn't want everyone to see you like that...but i don't know, you looked so natural, and happy when you were playing. god, i had never heard you play the drums before...you are fucking amazing, not that i'm surprised. you play everything so amazingly... i don't think i'll be able to play in front of you for a long time...and again, that's stupid and all in my head because you're not judgmental at all, and you would probably either compliment me sincerely with a pleased smile on your face, or offer to help. you helped me today...the marimba was too low and you helped me mount it, and i was so close to you...so close, and that's when the denial doesn't work anymore, and i realize...dammit you're so fucking nice...ugh...i hate you, and i can't even end i hate you with a period, cuz it's like i'm finishing that statement and making it true, and that makes me want to cry because i know that i would never, ever be able to hate you, because of how much i fucking love you. you looked so content so normal him her them me we're all the same to you i think i have concluded that you_make_me_want_to_cry 030129 ... brain stew wiggly and indulgent and generally sparkly. so far. 030411 ... anne-girl like dancing, then like imploding, also ten years younger 040911 ... kookaburra i find it a bit funny that i already talk to him like i've known him forever, and i didn't even notice until this moment. this is kind of freaking me out-i don't trust people this fast 040911 ... ebilsporkmonkey he makes me feel great, he makes me feel like a whole person for once, and he makes me feel happy and sad all at one time because i know i'll never really have him which makes me sad because he's the one thing i want more than anything and i'm happy because i think about what i have with him at these moments in time i think about how great it is to feel him touching me to feel his gentle lips pressed ever so lightly against my own i love the feeling i get when he's around i love being with him i feel protected, small, and love when i'm with him i always wonder when will be the next time he holds me so gently in his strong arms 040912 ... rose He makes me feel like a used condom. 040912 ... J He makes me feel guilty for moving on. He makes me feel angry with all his selfishness. He makes me feel dead inside. 040913 ... Sintina Like his love is better than chocolate, better than anything else that I've tried. Everyone here knows how to cry. 060106 ... megan he makes me feel that he'd go to the end of the earth to make me feel his love he makes me feel extraordinary in this dim light he makes me feel as though i had the most sparkling eyes, the softest hair, the most beautiful lips he makes me feel as though i could do anything and he would still smile for me, his eyes would still sparkle and he makes me feel like being near him always 060107 ... unhinged seen heard sexy intelligent talented complacent 190405 ... unhinged used cast_aside forgotten last_resort 190708 what's it to you? who go blather from