hold_me like rain. touch me feel me heal me if you pull me tightly enough, i might be able to hope that you won't grow tired of my face before too many moons have passed. pull me so tightly that i melt into you... 010515 ... forever All i want you to do is hold me in your arms, hold me nice and tight as i cry and scream. You know how i feel, except you don't know that if you hold me it will be the best night of my life. All i want everytime i see you is to have you hold me as i cry and scream. I want you to be there 010530 ... kingsuperspecial I think I'm a pretty simple case. I want to be loved. right now. the problem is with the right now part. and maybe I'm having trouble with the who part, because it has to be mutual. anyway, it's just another drug to try and make sense of the twisted, burning desire I have to fuck this whole life into nothing. it's just too complicated and pointless for me to even begin to figure out why the fuck I get up every day and keep going. _ferfuckssakes 010920 ... distorted tendencies i really need it. 010921 ... silentbob tell me again how everything is fine because we werent hurt and don't you apologize, there are no i'm_sorries here, i want no part of them. you didn't ruin anything except your door. the only thing that could have ruined me being here is if you had been injured 010922 ... psychobabe you know i like you, and i know you like me. So why is it we're on this superficial level of understanding? heh its amazing how much i can feel for you...people love to be held. wether its by a friend, a lover, or mom or dad whatever it all works. One of the worst feelings is the feelings of loneliness...its not the worst, but it sure as hell ranks up there. Dont you ever just get those days you want to let your guard down and let that person hold you? just once? for even an hour, a minute, a second? i know i would..i just wish he could see that 010928 ... unhinged just like you used to before i fucked everything up. before you held me and told me i was everything in a girl that you weren't looking for. and as much as that hurt my feelings, it hurts me more because of why you say that. maybe i am crazy. countless men can't be wrong. 010929 ... unhinged that's all i wanted you to do when you started babbling on and on and on about how you have to know yourself before you can be in a relationship and eventually someday i will have someone. that has been the mantra of my life and i feel like eventually has come and gone and i'm still alone so fuck eventually. i love you so much and i want to be with you and i can't even tell you. i couldn't bare to listen to you telling me these things because i just wanted to tell you that you could fix it all if we were together. but i didn't i just sat there and cried and started off into the other room. i never get to see you anymore because you are always with her and now that you guys are official i will never get to see you, especially since she's giving you a key to her new apartment. i just don't believe a word anyone says to me anymore. when you say you love me i don't believe it because i want you all to myself and i don't see how you could possibly love me at all when you have a girlfriend and all these other priorities. it's just me being extremely selfish and depressed and self-indulgent. i've never cried while i was high before. this is a strange sensation. 010930 ... monadh the stars and the moon the wind and the sky rain and dewdrops earth and fire light-winged birds of sleep 010930 ... the observant ascetic (fra angelico) in his eyes was this request, but he could not articulate it for fear his desperation would become obvious and she would become even more unsettled by it. additionally, he had become convinced over time that the voluminous and profound sins of his past had stained him beyond being worthy of affection or redemption, this made him all the more apprehensive the dynamic had changed between them, she was willing to speak to him again, but he knew that something was missing from their most recent conversation, her tone was very matter-of-fact and hinted that he was not so much welcome as he was tolerated he wanted to tell how much he loved her and how intensely he desired her but he knew he was on thin ice and thus remained silent star-crossed they remain, running parallel, keep the candles burning, dear ones, that these lines may meet again before they vanish on the horizon 010930 ... Aimee and never let go. In your arms I find a solace that I never knew was possible. I see myself as beautiful because I can almost see myself through your eyes. I am in love with you beyond a doubt. 011001 ... psychobabe hold me tonight. Hold me like you would if it were the end of our days. Hold me as if the sun were to burn out and the moon to collapse on itself. Hold me for an eternity in everlasting light, hold me.. 011103 ... nemo hold me now for who knows what corrupt soap opera tomorrow may have for us hold me later because i will still love you even after the sky falls always hold me, without you i am only me 011104 ... nmb i really wish someone would, but i wish... 011104 ... Aaron hold me till i pass away, kiss me till i stay, these words mean little with out you to hear, you are one that i hold dear. close to my heart, i would still pray, life like a dream, my emotions sway, no one to love, i hide my fear, my problem is life, and one left tear... i try, i live, i die... i would scream your... no. 011110 ... piercedjenny when i asked you to hold me, i mean to keep me near and dear, to make me feel safe. i never asked you to contain me, or to even try. 011111 ... Aimee Oh sweetie don't let go... please please don't... just hold me and never let me go. *cries* 011112 ... green eyes hold me forever lost in your arms buried in you hold me i'm scared where is your loving touch 020225 ... Mateo being bulgar hold this! 020225 ... unhinged don't worry. i'm used to imagining you there. 020225 ... you didn't say it, but you didn't have to. how many times - o, too many to count - did you hold me as my soul was slowly dying as i tried to punch it away into as small a space as i could possibly, so they could not rake their claws against it. bleeding and painful, rending soul, sometimes reopening wounds made before... and so i did. i held you as you cried for everyone else - for those you did not see yourself able to help (but, don't you see, you helped them simply by being there); for the man who hurt you time and time again - finding himself and not sure he could commit to you even though he took you for lust and human companionship; for your daughter and her future - perhaps a future without her father there, perhaps that's for the best, but leaves you all alone to provide for her (but you're not really alone, i will be there); for your family - your parents and brothers - especially your brother - if he goes, will he come back?; for everyone one else but you... even now, i still hold you, and i feel your sobs abating... you now are soulfully weeping, finally, for yourself - all the hurt and pain and anger and frustration - let them out on me, for i hold you and am strong enough to bear it all for you. until i may ask you the same: hold me... 040225 ... misstree i hate that sometimes i need you to hold me... in my world, i am always strong, always aloof, always together enough to tend my own troubles... but sometimes the things you draw out of me shake me so badly... i find myself lost, and you see it, and you hold me and help me without a word... i don't want you to be able to comfort me like that... but without it you would be a diety in marble, an ikon rather than a living soul... you guide me through the forests in a way that is not always gentle but nearly always Right... and you evoke things in me, wake me again to a world i lost in sleep... i am so scared of the torrents that rage between gut and heart that i deny them both... i try to stomp them down... and you see this, and you won't let me... your eyes are so kind as you help me twist the knife, because you know that that is precisely what i live for and from... and you rub my back as i retch up wrongnesses... darling playmate, the best, only you could know what lurve and Appreciation i carry... already there are small places where your touch will never fade... there will be more, i am sure of it... but so little time... i want to draw a decade from you before i go... i want to take you deep deep into me... and i will leave part of me inside you... a poem...i will teach you things you won't realize until they are thrown into contrast... but for now... just today, just right now, because everything is oatmeal and exhaustion... hold me, for a little while... gently... it won't take long... i just want to rest... i want to rest with you, because you're beautiful... 040225 ... unhinged it really isn't the same when i have to ask though. most of the time i won't ask, because i'm afraid you'll say no. 050809 ... unhinged i'm tired of pretending i don't love you. any of you. i remember when i wasn't so afraid to say it. i remember when i let them know. i also remember why i'm not so quick to tell these days. i'm through crying over you. so through crying over you. love is such a casual word. you toss it around like a ball. i'm tired of pretending i don't love you so i don't get tossed around too. anger comes from inaction. i'm tired of being angry with you. my life was so much simpler without you in it. just shut_up and hold_me. 070220 ... stork daddy hold tight 070221 ... stork daddy hold tight 070221 ... misstree let me be hard wood and breathing bark, let me not let you touch me, just warm me in your arms. i'd forgotten how peaceful it could be. 070221 ... caresscoffee i just want to be held by somebody who can say they love me without changing their mind after it gets the least bit serious 070222 ... fix meerrrr... i'm so tired, so exhausted, i've worn myself out. i feel so drained.. something has been dripping out. black, brown and grey stuff.. dark and sad stuff is being released. but i feel so weak... i need to breath in more colour... i'm lacking in red and orange... can you help me? 070223 ... stephshine something we'd all say a lot more often if we were braver. 070224 ... Ouroboros bondage ball is happening tonight- maybe I will be brave and just go get dressed up and go alone 070224 ... Isaou I asked you what to do to stop the baby crying and you told me, told me exactly how to hold her and what to say to her... And all I could think of was that I wanted you to do that for me...to hold me close, rubbing my back, telling me that it's okay and I don't need to cry... Please hold_me 071003 ... benny profane we are all petitioning an empty room. why can't we ask a real person? 071003 ... karyn because when you do I know I am beloved. 091128 ... Yes and as much i didn't at the time please don't ask me IF I KNOW YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND. 091128 ... oren never let_me_go. 101023 what's it to you? who go blather from