hey_man_nice_shot birdmad a little disquieting reading in my afternoon surf while tidying a few loose ends at my desk "... and in light of recent events of which i will spare you the details i would just like to get the universe's attention by shouting FUCK YEAH!" your "FUCK YEAH!" whether or not you knew or cared was a "FUCK YOU!" rammed with all the subtlety of a stiletto through my ribcage just remember to clean my blood off of that knife before you put it back and while i'm at it fuck you too 021120 ... kss there is a lot I could say here, but I have a feeling there's not much I can do at this point. sorry. this sucks. 021120 ... eddie monster suck it yup it can only get worse 021120 ... birdmad just say it then i REALLY wanna hear this and oh man it had better be good 021120 ... waiting aww, c'mon mister bunnyrabbit, the suspense is just positively killin' me over here lay it on me 021120 ... bird (really) mad oh, you think it sucks? for the sake of hypothesis, switch places and tell me it was the icing on my freaking cake, man. well struck. yee-hah. 021120 ... birdmad but seriously, if there's something you could say, i do want to hear this, so please, by all means c o n t i n u e 021120 ... kss what you saw was intended for a backwater directory, intended for my consumption alone. I mistakenly ftp “index.html” to the wrong folder and worlds collide. Now I’m bringing trouble to someone I have had no contact with. The abstract meets the world in such a distressing way. Also, I had never intended, and still do not plan on - making a public/blather exploit of the business which has upset you. things here on blather I tried to keep nameless, or just not say at all. and now the gravity of that is more apparent, and I wish I had been even more careful. At this point, I don't know that there is anything I can do to help. I do regret what happened, and wish I could undo it. other than that, not sure what to say. blather is fun and all, but this much intensity around my "real" life is not a trade I'd care to make. Maybe I'll just express myself elsewhere. sorry for your distress. I wish you the best. 021120 ... the raven burnt black so, is she still you? huh? 021120 ... x what? 021120 ... shredded barbecued and on toast see the kss blathe signed by ?????? on 021116 i can take a lot of things, i just can't take feeling like i'm being played for a sucker and in all honesty that's what this feels like right now 021120 ... x well you're doing that to yourself. no one is playing you for anything. and that's all from me for tonight. 021120 ... IKC 56-80 kss, i think it looks like he saved you the trouble and left himself it makes me sad but gives me perspective to know that i'm not the only one whose secrets seem to have gone crazy on them 021121 ... kss I really have no idea about this "is she still / are you still" stuff. I'm not playing, I'm just me and I'm caught in the middle of a mess and it's regrettable and there's not much I can do. 021121 ... MisterFunkadelic I've been watching this train-wreck since last night and thinking about the events that set my divorce in motion. and maybe I shouldn't butt in. But here goes anyway: kss. I don't know how to break the news to you, but you did kinda make your affairs sort of public and i know where your worlds collided. go back to you_are_beautiful " the surpressed echos of enjoyment fill me up. It's like sneaking around with a chocolate cake under my coat. I want to stop and share it everyone I see." 021115 It looked like right then, you got birdmad's attention, if no one else's, and if you were posting anything about it in any form on the internet, than you were risking the fact just out of principle that someone might see it. Granted, I'm not taking sides here, I've read the blathes, I read more often than I speak and can gather that birdmad is probably at least a little bit crazy and probably not entirely in a fun way either from the things he's admitted about his own past. Just thought you might appreciate an outside perspective in the matter 021121 ... IKC 56-80 ouch. "the supressed echoes of enjoyment" oh, man. i'd have taken that like a right hook to the jaw if i was the one reading that writen about somebody i love. then again, i just got the weird spaced-out deer in the headlights look from my best friend when i told her i love her so i've had my share of shots to the jaw for this year. ooh. no disrespect to anybody, but reading this is like watching one of those clips online where somebody gets hit in the crotch really hard, even when it isn't you, you can't help but cringe in sympathy 021121 ... eddie how cute 021121 ... kss anyone else? 021122 ... stork daddy what is wrong with everyone now? 021122 ... not a bird fan well, you got rid of birdmad. that can't be all bad. can it? 021122 ... eddie how long before you get rid of me? 021122 ... dxl last time I checked, I'm not anyone's possession 021122 ... what the fuck? who said you were? 021122 ... Nathan88 lyrics from a decent song 030101 ... angie by filter... i think 030101 ... Nathan88 youre the one who told me member? hahaha i do..cuz it was in a movie preveiw and i was like i like that song..whos it by? refer to above for what u said ;) 030101 what's it to you? who go blather from