here_it_is___love
unhinged in_simple_language
i'm trapped in my own horrible reality
i know you have the key
but you're saving it for someone else
a pretty package
devoid of meaning
your eyes glance over me
past me
through me
searching for your pretty package
but i'm used to being lonely
alone
advising counsel to the pretty people
050929
...
unhinged in_simple_language
again
i can't stand to be sober
because i can't stand to be alone with myself




underlying
051002
...
unhinged GAH


what about me?
it might sound childish
but for someone who has spent
most of their adult life
being the bandage to everyone else's
injustice and uncaring and bleeding hearts
the compassionate ear
what the fuck about me?
i'm so sick of calling the people
that said they would be there
to get their empty impersonal voicemail
and never a return call
too busy to listen to me
interesting
what the fuck about me?
051005
...
unhinged and almost immediately after i write this
he calls
maybe the busiest of all of them
and he found time to call and check on me


see assholes
he found time for me
051005
...
rage i stand here naked in front of you and wonder if u notice 051006
...
rage i stand here naked in front of you and wonder if u notice 051006
...
rage i stand here naked in front of you and wonder if u notice 051006
...
The llama It's hard to ignore you when you posted three times...


hehe...

all is good.
051006
...
unhinged you said you left me because you wouldn't be good for my feelings
future_tense


as_if
you don't eat benzos and scream at me
as_if
you haven't already left me broken_hearted


(and even after all of it
i miss_you_more_love_you_most
but
you are no damn good for me)
100910
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from