he_said nemo what i wanted to hear 011119 ... nah....! 74 011125 ... ClairE nothing that helped me. Man, WHY does this make me think of a specific person? 011127 ... searching too much and never enough...or maybe i just never heard what he was really trying to say 020208 ... super monkey robot team hyperforce go! something to her not to me. he smiled at her not at me. will there ever be a he said for me? 050627 ... *Amy* too hurting words. I`ll have to carry them with me forever, I can`t forget them 050627 ... Sintina "The anti-war people are hurting us.. the soldiers over here. We feel like warriors of an unwanted cause. We are here because we love the people of the United States, and they throw dirt in our faces with "Anti-War" rallies. We all feel bad when they chant their "Bush-Hatred" slogans.. because he's the Commander-in-Chief and whether we like it or not we have to follow him. So please, try to inform your friends that are that anti-war, that they are hurting those who fight and leave their homes and loved ones to protect them. It hurts that people protest because it's trendy, or they want their own generation's Woodstock. Or because they're ignorant.. or because they don't realize the peril the country is really in because of Hussein. Closing your eyes doesn't make the bad men go away. Closed eyes wouldn't have stopped Hitler or Mussolini, and they won't stop this man. And if you have friends that are bloodthirsty for war so much, they should enlist so that war to them loses its glamour. You become much less apt to fight when the sacrifices that are made are your own. I've seen enough of the intelligence to know that the war is neccesary. I don't like it... I don't want anyone to not go home. But this war has to happen. Either now, or when Iraq starts feeding terrorists chemical weapons. It's a certainty." 051117 ... TROUBLESUM sintina, quit blathering nonsense 051117 ... The Heretic SINTINA. MAKE THE CASE INSTEAD OF REFERING TO YOUR INTERNAL RESOLVE. TELL US WHY IT MAKES SENSE TO YOU. 051117 ... Sintina nonsense, troublsum? Where have I heard that before? Oh yes: "blather is words. bunches of words, strewn about in a twisty tangly web of pontification, insight, and nonsensical delight." seems I've got rights to blathe all the nonsense I want. **innocent smile** 051117 ... sad_bitch Hi sintina, You are an idiot. “I've seen enough of the intelligence to know that the war is neccesary.” haha. War is never necessary, except when it is used to defend your life or the lives of others such as the World War II, when western powers had to unite to defend Europe against the genocidal aims of Hitler and Mussolini. No they cannot really be compared to Sadam unless, of course, you are referring to the systematic deaths of thousands of Kurds and Iranians during the Iraq-Iran war of 1980. However, please understand that this genocide was made possible only by logistical and financial aid from ……... yes, the United States of America. Perhaps it is those weapons the bush administration was referring to when they launched their invasion of oil-rich Iraq. Then again, it’s very obvious that after the war both countries had exhausted themselves to the point of bankruptcy – which is really what the US wanted. Why you ask? Oh well, I don’t know, so that foreign investment would have total control of the oil fields…maybe. You decide you seem to be pretty well informed about this whole thing. With you having access to American intelligence and all. Of course those poor soldiers in Iraq feel like unwanted warriors, they are. The US occupation is so fucking obvious in its aims that anyone with half a brain can see through it. Go get educated you fucking moron! 051117 ... Sintina aw. That's so sweet! I love sheer, unadulterated opinions. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. That's the point. :) 051117 ... sad_bitch well, at least we agree on that. i love you. 051117 ... TROUBLESUM positive comebacks... believe it or not, i respect that 051123 ... Freak You make everyday like there is a song to be played and when I hear that song I think of you that is what ive wanted for so long and that is why I love you 060427 ... KISA they all pretend its a game when what their playing with is are people lives we all play with each other were all fucked one way another every fucking day 060427 ... pSyche I think I made a mistake," he said. "I wish I could turn back time," he said. "I wish I never met her," he said. "I still love you," he said. "I'm sorry," he said. "I'll come back," he said. I don't believe him any more. If everything that he said to me before turned out to be just words- then these are just words too. I almost don't want him to come back, if he ever does. I want to be alone but I can't bear being alone. It's a very helpless situation. 070806 ... .flowerock "I have to see you before I die" He's been crying alot lately on the phone I haven't seen him since October 2009 or 10.. His uncle passed away recently, or was he my uncle... great uncle? No one told him, he found out from his wife who saw a post by my cousin I was tagged in on face book about his passing. I think our family kind of neglects to keep in touch with him since be divorced my step mom. They don't keep in touch with me much either, but maybe I should reach out more. It does just feel like they're jot too fond of him or I, we're not what they wanted us to be. So he called to tell me, I already knew. He's working in Minnesota_winters outside building a sky scraper, he's 55 or so. He finally found the woman he is excited about and in love with but she's not well, having surgeries to fix mistakes made in previous surgeries, battling infections, more surgeries in her future... he works, cooks, cleans, takes care of her 5 year old daughter, who is now also his daughter. He's strong, but he's getting older and he's tired. He's worked hard all the time I've been old enough to know him, I know because I rarely saw him even when I was visiting him, he was always working. He woke up, worked, ate dinner, went to bed repeat. He almost never misses work, I could probably say never. He missed work when he had cancer and had surgery for it, he went back as soon as he could. He isn't perfect, but to me he really is. I do wish I'd had more time with him as a kid and that I'd visited more as an adult. It's not too late I guess. Travel isn't cheap, don't want to lose my job taking time off... we have our doGoa to find a dog sitter or take with us.. that costs money... time_and_money But I need to hug him and to laugh with him and to have our debates and sit outside watching... the outside. I want to meet his new wife and my new little sister. I want to hug them too. They are so sweet. I've always loved my dad more than anyone, but I never got to spend alot of time with him. And now we're getting older, and more locked into where we are. Last time I visited him I told my partner at the time I was going to go with or without him because my dad was having surgery for cancer and I was worried he'd die. I didn't have a liscense so we had a friend drive us and our jeep from arising to minnesota to visit. We didn't have money so we took a gas can and I hung out in the cold snow at gas stations talking to people and asking for help to fill our can or tank. We got there and back that way. I got my liscense in Nebraska. Unfortunately on that trip I also married an asshole for all the wrong reasons... now I'm married to my heartmate for all the right reasons and live in a crazy city by a crumbling sea bluff... and life is good and kind of chaotic and delicate, and it's that way for both my dad and I in a way... I'll see him soon, before either of us dies, and I'll see him more than soon, I'll see him more. 170113 what's it to you? who go blather from