happy_to_be_right gull you always feared i'd walk out on your life, and it looks like i have. i left you. you left me first, but that's ok. we can ignore that little fact. i did leave you. i walked out on your life, so it looks like you were right. happy now? you said you knew my thoughts. there were some good ones. i thought our friendship was over. i thought you didn't care. i thought you'd never talk to me again. but, as you pointed out, what did i know? i didn't know. what do i know? i don't know. i wish i did, but i don't. i was such a wonderful friend, you said. so wonderful you even stopped to wonder if i was real. am i? you know me now. you tell me. am i real? what about all those people i managed to outshine? i had the world at my feet, don't forget, and i didn't even know it. i knew so little. nothing's changed. i know so little. you put that all so simply. do you remember? simply and beautifully put, i must say. back in the good old days. trying hurt you. i'm sorry. you think trying didn't hurt me? and do you think i like grovelling? i tried to apologise, but no more. i’ve apologised. in my heart i feel you should be apologising, too. yet, if it requires too much effort, then i guess i don't mean as much to you as you always led me to believe. and i did believe. i believed in you, in us, in the dream. i believed everything you said. and i believed you when you said that you didn't like me. you came to that conclusion after a few weeks. you didn't like me, so it was over. bye. i had nothing to stay for, so i left. i walked out on your life. i didn’t even bid you farewell. i just walked, like you knew i would. i'm a walker, after all. i didn’t run. you knew i wouldn't. so, you were right. i hope you’re happy now. are you? 020509 what's it to you? who go blather from